This Life



This life is too lonely without someone to accompany us. This life is too exhausting without someone to rest our head on. This life is too harsh without someone to lean on. This life is too cold without someone we can hold onto. This life is too empty without someone to reach our hands. In the loneliness of life, it is nice to have someone we can hold most dear. It is nice to have someone who holds us in their arms whenever things get too hard to bear. It is nice to have someone who kisses our pain away whenever things get too painful to carry. It is nice to have someone to share our baggage with. In the wilderness of life, it is nice to have someone to come home to. And as great as it is, we know it is difficult to find someone like that. And when we know we found that someone, we also know that it is actually harder to keep them. However, this is our first life. And who knows that we won’t have another life after this? Hence, we want to live without any regret. Hence, we want to hold onto that someone we hold most dear.

“Without any sound, just stay with me like this, as if we’re quietly being brought together by fate.” –Moon Sung Nam, This Life

This beautiful song is titled “This Life”. It was recorded by Moon Sung Nam of Every Single Day for the soundtrack of 2017 South Korean drama series, “Because This is My First Life”. The song was released on October 30th 2017 as single album “Because This Is My First Life OST Part 5”. “This Life” was written, composed, and arranged by Moon Sung Nam himself. Listening to this song always makes me feel solemn and peace. And somehow it reminds me that this life is indeed worth to live, and that this love is indeed worth to fight for in this life.


"Because This Is My First Life OST Part 5" single cover | source: wiki.d-addicts.com

There are times that we just want to spend the time in silence; a filled-with-solemn kind of silence. And sometimes we want to spend time just like that with our significant other. And in that silence, even without words or any sound, we could feel the peace. Have you ever felt like that? Sometimes you just want to sit side by side with your significant other without saying anything. And it’s not that kind of awkward silence, but more of solemn silence. And you know you won’t have a feeling like that with any other person than your significant other. And you know that finding peace in silence can only be obtained when you’re with your significant other. And even when your significant other is not around, you can still feel their presence in the silence that remains. And that’s how you know how much you long for the presence of your significant other, even in the silence. “Without any sound, just stay with me like this, as if we’re quietly being brought together by fate. Though there’s no more scent left at all, I could still feel it lingering here.”
They say that we never know how much someone means to us until they are gone. And after spending most of our times with our significant other, sometimes we naturally forget how we are going to be when they are not around. Sometimes, we take their presence for granted. Until one day when they are gone for too long, that’s when we realize that how we are becoming without them around. And how much we are getting used to it, it feels like the time walks slower than ever. And at some point, we cannot even remember those moments we spend with our significant other, for we are missing them too much to remember. And in the loneliness of silence, though everything remains the same, there are only blinking dim lights in our room that remind us of how lonely we are. And that’s when we are hoping they would stay; that they would come home to us. “Though there’s nothing that has changed, I’m getting used to it little by little. It feels like the time has stopped, the moment gets far away, and only the blinking lights remain.”
When we live together with the person whom we hold most dear, our significant other, we cannot even remember the life before it. We cannot even remember how we used to spend our days alone before they came into our life. We cannot even remember how we used to get through the nights all by ourselves before they came. The time that we spend with that person has become countless. It feels like forever; like we were always living with them our whole life. And when that person is suddenly gone or not coming home or leaving us all alone, we are hit by the old feeling from our life before that person. In the sadness, we only hope that their lingering presence could stay with us for a while. In the sadness, we only wish that they would eventually come back home to stay with us forever. “In the countless time, there are days that have passed. Stay like this, before I’m leaving again alone on a different path.” In the sadness of loneliness, we beg them to come and stay with us, for life is too cold without their presence. “Stay with me. Come with me.”
For I know how hard it is to find someone compatible with us to spend the rest of our life with, I could never imagined before that I would really find that special someone. And now after I do, I feel blessed and grateful. I feel peace beyond anything. And I feel at home. And I know that it is something I can never let go for my whole life. Everything is blissful even the time we spend in silence, while doing nothing in our own space. Everything is wonderful even the time we spend in hardship, while struggling with what may come tomorrow. And this life, this life has become more colorful since that person came in the picture. This life has become more meaningful with that person in it. This life has become what it is really meant to be. For the first time in this first life of mine, I made a decision for me only, for my sake, as the thing that I want and wish for instead of some other people’s need. And because this is my first life, I know my decision to stay with that person was the thing that I will never regret. And it makes me happy.

“In the countless time, there are days that have passed. Stay like this, before I’m leaving again alone on a different path.” –Moon Sung Nam, This Life



이대로 소리 없이 머물러줘 가만히 우연히 함께 있는 것처럼
(Idaero sori eopsi meomulleojwo gamanhi uyeonhi hamkke issneun geoscheoreom)
((Without any sound, just stay with me like this, as if we’re quietly being brought together by fate))
아무런 향기조차 남아있진 않지만 너무나 길어지는 여운만 남아
(Amureon hyanggijocha namaissjin anhjiman neomuna gireojineun yeounman nama)
((Though there’s no more scent left at all, I could still feel it lingering here))
하아 아아 하아 아아 하아 stay with me 하아 아아 하아 아아 하아 come with me
A haa aa haa aa haa, stay with me, a haa aa haa aa haa, come with me

어제와 달라진 아무것도 없지만 조금씩 익숙해지고 있어
(Eojewa dallajin geon amugeosdo eopsjiman jogeumssik iksukhaejigo isseo)
((Though there’s nothing that has changed, I’m getting used to it little by little))
시간이 멈춰버린 것만 같은 순간 멀리 깜빡이는 불빛만 남아
(Sigani meomchwobeorin geosman gateun i sungan jeo meolli kkamppagineun bulbitman nama)
((It feels like the time has stopped, the moment gets far away, and only the blinking lights remain))
하아 아아 하아 아아 하아 stay with me 하아 아아 하아 아아 하아 come with me
A haa aa haa aa haa, stay with me, a haa aa haa aa haa, come with me

많은 시간 속에 스치듯 지나쳐간 나날들
(Su manheun sigan soge seuchideut jinachyeogan nanaldeul)
((In the countless time, there are days that have passed))
이대로 머물러줘 다른 길을 떠나 홀로
(Idaero meomulleojwo tto dareun gireul tteona na hollo)
((Stay like this, before I’m leaving again alone on a different path))
하아 아아 하아 아아 하아 stay with me 하아 아아 하아 아아 하아 come with me
A haa aa haa aa haa, stay with me, a haa aa haa aa haa, come with me

이대로 소리 없이 머물러줘 가만히 우연히 함께 있는 것처럼
(Idaero sori eopsi meomulleojwo gamanhi uyeonhi hamkke issneun geoscheoreom)
((Without any sound, just stay with me like this, as if we’re quietly being brought together by fate))

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