Voice of My Heart



It’s easy to find someone else’s mistake and be mad at them for that mistake. It’s easy to find someone else’s drawback and become angry at them for it. What’s hard is to accept that mistake is indeed being made every now and then, since we’re human after all. What’s hard is to embrace that everyone has their own lacks, and there are no better human than the others, only context. No matter how mad or angry or disappointed we are at someone, don’t compare them to anyone else; moreover, don’t compare them to our own selves, for no one can really understand how it feels to be on someone else’s shoes. The least we can do is that we are given the heart to accept, to embrace, to give empathy, and moreover, to be patient. No matter how angry we are towards the life, please remember to not throwing away the only person who’s willing to be there for us when the whole world is turning its back against us. Remember the person who’s always there for us whenever we hit the rock bottom. Remember the person who’s not only listening to our shits, but also giving their endless efforts to support us.

“Please let my love effloresce in your heart, so that it blooms into reality. For a long time I’ve been in thirst the caress of a man, hopefully being with you, my life is cheerful.” –Nike Ardilla, Voice of My Heart (Suara Hatiku)

Whenever I feel down from disappointment, there is this one song that always success in soothing my weary heart. It’s a song titled “Voice of My Heart (Suara Hatiku)”, performed by the late Indonesian lady rocker, Nike Ardilla. The rock ballad track was served as the title song taken from the album of the same name, which was released posthumously in 1996, approximately a year after her sudden death in 1995. When it was first released, the song was already familiar for Indonesian people, for it was released prior in Malaysia under the title “I Won’t Make Any Voice (Aku Tak Akan Bersuara)” before she passed away. “Voice of My Heart (Suara Hatiku)” was written by Saari Amri and Adit OB, with the late Indonesian actor, Ryan Hidayat, starred in the music video of the song. I don’t know, but I always love to see Nike and Ryan together. I think they are match made in heaven, like literally; I really hope they end up together in heaven now.


"Voice of My Heart (Suara Hatiku)" album cover | source: Musica Studios

Sometimes, good intentions are misunderstood. And it’s very easy to misunderstand someone’s good intention when our mind is covered in anger. It’s easy to misunderstand someone’s sincerity when our judgment is clouded by the past resentment. And most of the times, sadly, the misunderstanding occurs between two people who actually care for each other the most. Yes, sometimes our good intention is easily misunderstood by the person we hold most dear. And no matter how many times it has been happened before, it still hurts the same every time it happens. It’s a mental breakdown for us. It’s devastating us since we don’t know anymore how to open up their heart and mind so that they can read between the lines and understand our real intention. We are neglected, when all we want is just to love them with all of our heart. “Please let my love effloresce in your heart, so that it blooms into reality. For a long time I’ve been in thirst the caress of a man, hopefully being with you, my life is cheerful.”
However, I do believe that good intention will eventually prevail. I do have the faith that sincere love will always prevail. Sincere love will never waver in front of money and wealth. You can call me naive or hypocrite, but this is what I really think. When we love someone, we shouldn’t love them for money or wealth or other superficial things that could disappear in a moment. We love them for their beautiful soul. And when we love someone that way, we won’t make any voice when we know that they are lacking. And when we love someone that way, we won’t look for another person we think is better. We won’t compare them to anyone else; because we know they can’t be compared. And nothing is compared to them. “I won’t make any voice though you are lacking, it’s just your devotion that I hope for. I won’t make the second though the sparkle is tempting, my love and affection remain completely for you. It’s just that I ask from you to be forever faithful, therefore this love is eternal, dear, that’s what I pray for.”
When we love someone sincerely, our mind won’t be shaken by material things. When we love someone sincerely, our heart won’t be tempted by other people. When we love someone sincerely, we love them for all they are; we love all of them, not only their brightest side, but also their darkest side. When we love someone sincerely, we’ll always be there for them, no matter how hard or difficult the situation is. When we love someone sincerely, we won’t ask for material things; instead, we would wish for their devotion, since we give them too. When we love someone sincerely, we would hope for their faithfulness, since we give them too. When we love someone sincerely, we would expect for sincerity too. It is natural that we need reciprocity in romance relationship. For it takes two to tango, hence we can’t be the one carrying all the baggage. For when the feeling isn’t reciprocal, it hurts. For when the sincerity is one-sided, it hurts. “It will never happen, the wreck of our love, if only your heart was like mine.”


The late Nike Ardilla and Ryan Hidayat | source: bintang.com

How can we compare someone who already knows all of us and still accept us to someone who only knows us partially? How can we compare someone who already sees every part of us and embrace us to someone who only sees some part of us? How can we compare someone who loves even the darkest side of us to someone who only adores the bright side of us? It is just not fair. Even though the other person  gives us something that the particular person cannot give us, we should not compare. Even though the other person embodies the ideality that the particular person cannot ever be, we should not compare. Even though the other person brings the excitement that the particular person cannot bring, we should not compare. We should not compare that particular person who is willing to stand by us through the ups and downs to the other person who was only stopping by for a moment in our life. We should not compare that particular person who is dedicating their time and strength to withstand and bear up with us through good and bad times to the other person who was only coming up for a short period of our life. We should not. We should never.

“I won’t make any voice though you are lacking, it’s just your devotion that I hope for. I won’t make the second though the sparkle is tempting, my love and affection remain completely for you. It’s just that I ask from you to be forever faithful, therefore this love is eternal, dear, that’s what I pray for.” –Nike Ardilla, Voice of My Heart (Suara Hatiku)





Izinkan cintaku berbunga di hatimu, biar terus mekar jadi kenyataan
(Please let my love effloresce in your heart, so that it blooms into reality)
T’lah lama ku dahaga belaian seorang insan, s’moga bersamamu ceria hidupku
(For a long time I’ve been in thirst the caress of a man, hopefully being with you, my life is cheerful)

Ku tak akan bersuara walau dirimu kekurangan, hanya setiamu itu ku harapkan
(I won’t make any voice though you are lacking, it’s just your devotion that I hope for)
Ku tak akan menduakan walau kilauan menggoda, kasih dan sayangku tetap utuh untukmu
(I won’t make the second though the sparkle is tempting, my love and affection remain completely for you)
Hanya ku pinta darimu, setialah selamanya, sehingga abadi cinta ini, sayang, itu ku doakan
(It’s just that I ask from you to be forever faithful, therefore this love is eternal, dear, that’s what I pray for)

Ku tak akan bersuara walau dirimu kekurangan, hanya setiamu itu ku harapkan
(I won’t make any voice though you are lacking, it’s just your devotion that I hope for)
Ku tak akan menduakan walau kilauan menggoda, kasih dan sayangku tetap utuh untukmu
(I won’t make the second though the sparkle is tempting, my love and affection remain completely for you)
Hanya ku pinta darimu, setialah selamanya, sehingga abadi cinta ini, sayang, itu ku doakan
(It’s just that I ask from you to be forever faithful, therefore this love is eternal, dear, that’s what I pray for)

Tak mungkin ‘kan terjadi kehancuran cinta kita, andainya hatimu seperti hatiku
(It will never happen, the wreck of our love, if only your heart was like mine)
Andainya hatimu seperti hatiku
(If only your heart was like mine)

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