Try Sleeping with a Broken Heart



Life is full of surprises; and the funny thing about life is that it can turn somber in just one night. Things can change in just one night. Heart can break in just one night. Love can go in vain in just one night. Relationship can crumble apart in just one night. Dreams and hopes can go to waste in just one night. And sometimes, it doesn’t even take a minute to break someone’s heart. It’s funny, isn’t it? As a human, are we really an independent being? As a human, do we really have the freedom upon our own life? As a human, do we really have the power to control our heart and feelings? If we do, then why we cannot help but being heartbroken by someone else? Why do we even feel that? Why does that kind of thing even exist? Who do we keep on having some feelings that are hard to cope with? Don’t we have any power to erase it? Do we have any power to control our memories and what comes into our mind? Why is it so hard for us to fall asleep at night when we are heartbroken? Why can’t we have a strong control upon it?

“Have you ever tried sleeping with a broken heart? Well, you could try sleeping in my bed, lonely, own me, nobody ever shut it down like you. You wore the crown, you made my body feel heaven bound, why don’t you hold me, need me? I thought you told me you’d never leave me. Looking in the sky I could see your face, and I know right where I fit in. Take me, make me, you know that I’ll always be in love, with you, right till the end.” –Alicia Keys, Try Sleeping with a Broken Heart

This song is titled “Try Sleeping with a Broken Heart”. And at some point in my life, I feel so related to this song. It’s performed by one of my favorite singers-songwriters, Alicia Keys. It was released on November 17th 2009 as the second single taken from her fourth studio album, “The Element of Freedom”. The synthpop R n’ B track with downtempo was written by Keys herself along with Jeff Bhasker and Patrick “Plan Pat” Reynolds. An official accompany music video, directed by Syndrome Studio, was premiered on November 16th 2009. Lyrically, it follows the story of someone who vows to move on from a failed relationship, but struggles to overcome constant thoughts of her lover. As Keys once said before performing this song live, trying to sleep with a broken heart is a very difficult thing to do. So in the end, what you’re trying to do is just figuring out how you’re going to make it through and how you’re going to get on.


"Try Sleeping with a Broken Heart" single cover | source: en.wikipedia.org

Some things are just beyond our control; quoting the music video of this song: “There are those among us who are blessed with the power to save what is loved by another, but powerless to use this blessing for love themselves.” At times, we are just too busy taking care of other people’s hearts, but on the contrary, we forget to take care of the heart of the person who is really significant for us. In the end, we end up breaking their hearts. And we can never know what they feel unless we’re in their shoes. However, believe me, I’ve been in that shoes. I’ve been neglected. And it makes me feel dejected, as I am being left alone in my bed; finding it hard to sleep at night as I can still feel the presence of that person lingering around me. And I can vividly remember it all; the touch, the scent, the voice, and everything. “Even if you were a million miles away, I could still feel you in my bed, near me, touch me, feel me. And even at the bottom of the sea, I could still hear inside my head, telling me, touch me, feel me. And all the time you were telling me lies.”
I can still feel the presence haunting me in my bed. I can still feel the warmth of his body. I can still hear the voice whispering words of love in my ears. I can still feel the touch caressing my skin all through the night. I can still smell the scent. I can still feel the embrace and the kiss that put me into sound sleep. It was all too memorable that my memories can’t seem to erase it. It has been engraved deep within me that I can’t sleep. “Have you ever tried sleeping with a broken heart? Well, you could try sleeping in my bed, lonely, own me, nobody ever shut it down like you. You wore the crown, you made my body feel heaven bound, why don’t you hold me, need me? I thought you told me you’d never leave me. Looking in the sky I could see your face, and I know right where I fit in. Take me, make me, you know that I’ll always be in love, with you, right till the end.” It was all too wonderful that my mind can’t seem to wash it away. It was all too beautiful and comfortable that my body is refusing to throw it all away. And I only know that I’m indeed heartbroken.
“Anybody could’ve told you right from the start, it’s ‘bout to fall apart. So rather than hold onto a broken dream, I’ll just hold on to love. And I could find a way to make it, don’t hold on too tight, I’ll make it without you tonight.” Yes, I know that I am heartbroken. And I know I should hold onto love instead of a broken heart. And I know I should find a way to make it. I know I should not hold on too tight. I know I should find a way to make it without him tonight, yet I cannot help but hold on to the times we had together. Yet I know that I should find a way to make it without him tonight. And I also know that it’s very difficult. Yet indeed, dealing with a broken heart is never easy. And the art of letting go and moving on is never easy. And trying to sleep with a broken heart is never easy. Yet I have to tell myself that I will make it. I’m going to make it. I must make it. “So tonight, I’m gonna find a way to make it without you, tonight I’m gonna find a way to make it without you. I’m gonna hold on to the times that we had tonight, I’m gonna find a way to make it without you.”


"The Element of Freedom" album cover | source: en.wikipedia.org

To tell you from my experience, trying to sleep with a broken heart is like trying to run away from a nightmare, only to find ourselves trapped in another nightmare. It’s like we’re stuck. When we’re awake, our mind keeps on haunting us with memories that don’t seem to fade. When we’re asleep, our mind keeps on reminding us of the pain and sorrow that is engraved in our hearts. It’s like there’s no way out. It’s like we’re never stop trying to figure out how to get through with it and move along. Yet it seems like an endless loop of hollow. And it’s all because of the absence of our significant one. Their presence is the only thing that can ease our loneliness. And their absence is the only thing that can cause our loneliness. Freedom starts from ourselves, but how can we gain our freedom when our loneliness depends on someone else? How can we gain our freedom when our happiness depends on someone else? As a human, we can never be totally free. As a human, we can never be in an absolute freedom. We are naturally attached to love, so can we be free?

“Anybody could’ve told you right from the start, it’s ‘bout to fall apart. So rather than hold onto a broken dream, I’ll just hold on to love. And I could find a way to make it, don’t hold on too tight, I’ll make it without you tonight.” –Alicia Keys, Try Sleeping with a Broken Heart




Let’s do it baby, let’s do it baby, let’s do it, do it

Even if you were a million miles away, I could still feel you in my bed, near me, touch me, feel me
And even at the bottom of the sea, I could still hear inside my head, telling me, touch me, feel me
And all the time you were telling me lies

So tonight, I’m gonna find a way to make it without you, tonight I’m gonna find a way to make it without you
I’m gonna hold on to the times that we had tonight, I’m gonna find a way to make it without you

Have you ever tried sleeping with a broken heart? Well, you could try sleeping in my bed, lonely, own me, nobody ever shut it down like you
You wore the crown, you made my body feel heaven bound, why don’t you hold me, need me? I thought you told me you’d never leave me
Looking in the sky I could see your face, and I know right where I fit in
Take me, make me, you know that I’ll always be in love, with you, right till the end

So tonight, I’m gonna find a way to make it without you, tonight I’m gonna find a way to make it without you
I’m gonna hold on to the times that we had tonight, I’m gonna find a way to make it without you

Anybody could’ve told you right from the start, it’s ‘bout to fall apart
So rather than hold onto a broken dream, I’ll just hold on to love
And I could find a way to make it, don’t hold on too tight, I’ll make it without you tonight

So tonight, I’m gonna find a way to make it without you, tonight I’m gonna find a way to make it without you
I’m gonna hold onto the times that we had tonight, I’m gonna find a way to make it without you

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