The Song of Longing



People say that regret always comes too late. And that we never know what we have until it’s gone. And that we only know we love when we miss. Sad but true, that is what mostly happens to most people most of the times. There are times when people make some mistakes that hurt their loved ones; driven and taken away by the emotions. There are times when people say harsh words that push their loved ones away from them. There are times when people do mean things that take their loved ones away from their side. And after some time has passed, that’s only when they realize that they have done something wrong. Yet they cannot take back what has happened. And there is only the emptiness that remains. Can people really open their heart to admit that they did wrong? Can people really let go of their ego to admit that they have let something precious to slip off of their hands? Can people really willingly take down their pride to admit that they long for that something they have let go? Can people face their fears?

“I miss you so much, now I can finally feel the distance between us. I miss you so much, tears are falling like this, but why didn’t I know?” –Wanna One, Beautiful

“Beautiful” is the song performed by South Korean boy group which was created through the survival audition music television program, Mnet’s Produce 101 Season 2, Wanna One. It served as the group’s title track for the group’s album, “1-1=0 (Nothing Without You)”, which was released on November 13th 2017. The album is the prequel repackage album for the group’s debut extended play, “1X1=1 (To Be One)”, which was released on August 7th 2017. An official accompany music video with a storyline (called as ‘movie version’ MV), guest-starring actor Cha Seung Won and directed by Yong Yi, was premiered on Mnet on November 8th 2017. Almost two weeks later, the ‘performance version’ MV was premiered on Mnet on November 20th 2017, focusing on the choreography of the song performed by the eleven members of Wanna One. “Beautiful” is a dance pop ballad track written by Tenzo and Kebee, with music composed by Tenzo and Wooziq, and arrangement done by Wooziq. Lyrically, it speaks about the fear and longing for the past, as well as yearning for the future.


"Nothing Without You" album cover | source: en.wikipedia.org

As a human, we frequently make mistakes; and we cannot turn back the time. People say that we should not cry over milk that has spilled, instead we have to fill the empty glass with new ones. We cannot undo our mistakes, but we can try everything in order to make a redemption, or at least, to apologize. Some people foolishly sing a song, in hopes that it could touch the sky. Some people make a wish that keeps them all night in tears, in hopes that it could touch the heart of their loved ones. “This foolish song that is filled with regret, I hope it could reach the sky. My prayer that has spent all night in tears, I hope it could reach your heart.” They say that we were fool because we were young. The truth is that we make mistakes so that we can learn, while we’re still young. And as we grow up, we learn through those mistakes. “I was young; I didn’t know it would be like this. I thought things were just a given back then. The smile that you left behind for me still remains in the heart of mine. Honestly, I think I still need the love I have yet to receive. The longer the time I’m left alone, the more I’m getting afraid. I miss those times and I miss you so much.”
Some memories, particularly the deepest and most precious ones, are always being there within us. People say that it’s like storage, a very large and deep one like the sea. We could be wondering around in there all day long and getting lost in it and all we could find is the traces of solely our loved ones. And we hold onto those memories, while enduring to live day by day. The longer we are being alone, the more we’re getting afraid as we realize that we have made mistakes by forsaken our loved ones. “Memories are such like a big warehouse as wide as the ocean. I wander and get lost in it all day. Even in this loneliness that I’m feeling, it’s only the traces of you, so I force my eyes shut and endure through this day.” The longer we are being alone, the more we realize the deep longing feeling we have for our loved ones. It’s the emptiness, the loneliness, and the space stretched between us and our loved ones. And in the end, it’s the falling tears that make us realize. And we wonder why we didn’t realize it back then. “I miss you so much, now I can finally feel the distance between us. I miss you so much, tears are falling like this, but why didn’t I know?”
And yes we would do anything to redeem ourselves. We have to see that person. We must meet that person. We feel this urgency that cannot be detained anymore. We need to get that person back. “While holding a flower that is as pretty as you, I want to stand in front of you again. With a better self than back in those times, I want to appear in front of you. I’m drawing out those familiar times with my fingertips, crying in this same place like a broken clock. The dazzling you, the angelic you, the beautiful you, I want to hold you with all my heart. I want to see you again.” We need to say sorry. We need to tell that person that they’re beautiful, that we love them. We need to say that we need them. Our being that appears to be alone is too unfamiliar for us and it scares the hell out of us. And we are regretful for feeling it only now. “So beautiful; it’s you who is more beautiful than anyone else. Don’t get hurt, don’t cry. This song is for you, if you can hear it, please come back again to me. Oh, I miss you. Seeing the image of myself standing alone in the mirror, it’s strange and I’m afraid. I need you. I hate myself for realizing this only now. Come back to me.”


Wanna One for "Nothing Without You" album jacket photo | source: YMC Entertainment

We must open our heart to admit that we did wrong. We must let go of our ego to admit that we have let something precious to slip off of our hands. We must be willing to take down our pride to admit that we long for that something we have let go. We must face our fears. “So beautiful; I wonder if you were crying somewhere. Don’t leave, don’t go. I love you, it’s a lie. Whatever words you say, it would be nice for me. Oh I miss you, those last words by you who drifted away from me; it’s strange, I’m afraid. I need you. I hate myself for realizing this only now.” And even though all is just a lie, we would still like to hear it anyway if those words were coming from that person; since we cannot stand the final words before that person was fading away from us. Even if their love is a lie, it would be nice to hear it from that person, still. It’s not that we are desperate. It’s just that we still have hope; hence we are willing to try harder. It’s just that we still have love; hence we are willing to fight for it. It’s just that we long for that person so much.

Oh, I miss you. I miss you. Seeing the image of myself standing alone in the mirror, it’s strange and I’m afraid. I need you. I hate myself for realizing this only now. Come back to me.” –Wanna One, Beautiful




바보같이 아쉬움 많은 노래가 하늘에 닿기를
(Babogatji aswium manheun noraega haneure dahgireul)
((This foolish song that is filled with regret, I hope it could reach the sky))
눈물 속에 밤새운 기도가 마음에 닿기를
(Nunmul soge bamsaeun nae gidoga maeume dahgireul)
((My prayer that has spent all night in tears, I hope it could reach your heart))

어렸어 내가 이럴 줄은 몰랐어 당연한 거라 그땐 생각했었어
(Eoryeosseo naega ireol jureun mollasseo dangyeonhan geora geuttaen saenggakhaesseosseo)
((I was young, I didn’t know it would be like this, I thought things were just a given back then))
내게 남겨준 미소가 아직도 가슴속에 남아있어
(Naege namgyeojun misoga ajikdo i gaseumsoge namaisseo)
((The smile that you left behind for me still remains in the heart of mine))
솔직히 아직은 받는 사랑이 필요한 가봐 홀로 남은 시간이
(Soljikhi na ajigeun batneun sarangi piryohan gabwa hollo nameun sigani)
((Honestly, I think I still need the love I have yet to receive, the longer the time I’m left alone))
길어질수록 두렵고 그래 그때가 그립고 너무 보고 싶고 그래 yeah
(Gireojilsurok duryeopgo geurae geuttaega geuripgo neomu bogo sipgo geurae, yeah)
((The more I’m getting afraid, I miss those times, and I miss you so much, yeah))

I miss you so much 이제서야 느껴 우리 공간
(I miss you so much, ijeseoya neukkyeo uri gonggan)
((I miss you so much, now I can finally feel the distance between us))
I miss you so much 이렇게 눈물이 나는데 몰랐을까
(I miss you so much, ireohge nunmuri naneunde wae nan mollasseulkka)
((I miss you so much, tears are falling like this, but why didn’t I know?))

So beautiful beautiful 누구 보다 아름다울 너니까
(So beautiful, beautiful, geu nugu boda areumdaul neonikka)
((So beautiful, beautiful, it’s you who is more beautiful than anyone else))
아프지 울지 향한 노래가 들린다면 다시 돌아와
(Apeuji ma ulji ma neol hyanghan noraega deullindamyeon dasi dorawa)
((Don’t get hurt, don’t cry, this song is for you, if you can hear it, please come back again to me))
Oh 그리워 그리워 거울 속에 혼자 서있는 모습이
(Oh geuriwo geuriwo geoul soge honja seoissneun moseubi)
((Oh, I miss you, I miss you, seeing the image of myself standing alone in the mirror))
낯설어 두려워 네가 필요해 이제야 느끼는 내가 너무 싫어 다시 돌아와
(Naccseoreo duryeowo nega piryohae ijeya neukkineun naega neomu sirheo dasi dorawa)
((It’s strange and I’m afraid, I need you, I hate myself for realizing this only now, come back to me))

기억은 바다처럼 넓은 창고라고 안에서 하루 종일 헤매도
(Gieogeun badacheoreom neolpeun changgorago geu aneseo haru jongil hemaedo)
((Memories are such like a big warehouse as wide as the ocean, I wander and get lost in it all day))
혼자 느끼는 외로움마저 유일한 너의 흔적이라고 억지로 감은 견디고 있어 오늘도
(Honja neukkineun i oeroummajeo yuilhan neoui heunjeogirago eokjiro nun gameun chae gyeondigo isseo oneuldo)
((Even in this loneliness that I’m feeling, it’s only the traces of you, so I force my eyes shut and endure through this day))

I miss you so much 이제서야 느껴 우리 공간
(I miss you so much, ijeseoya neukkyeo uri gonggan)
((I miss you so much, now I can finally feel the distance between us))
I miss you so much 이렇게 눈물이 나는데 몰랐을까
(I miss you so much, ireohge nunmuri naneunde wae nan mollasseulkka)
((I miss you so much, tears are falling like this, but why didn’t I know?))

So beautiful beautiful 누구 보다 아름다울 너니까
(So beautiful, beautiful, geu nugu boda areumdaul neonikka)
((So beautiful, beautiful, it’s you who is more beautiful than anyone else))
아프지 울지 향한 노래가 들린다면 다시 돌아와
(Apeuji ma ulji ma neol hyanghan noraega deullindamyeon dasi dorawa)
((Don’t get hurt, don’t cry, this song is for you, if you can hear it, please come back again to me))
Oh 그리워 그리워 거울 속에 혼자 서있는 모습이
(Oh geuriwo geuriwo geoul soge honja seoissneun moseubi)
((Oh, I miss you, I miss you, seeing the image of myself standing alone in the mirror))
낯설어 두려워 네가 필요해 이제야 느끼는 내가 너무 싫어
(Naccseoreo duryeowo nega piryohae ijeya neukkineun naega neomu sirheo)
((It’s strange and I’m afraid, I need you, I hate myself for realizing this only now))

Yeah 이렇게 너처럼 예쁜 꽃을 안고 앞에 다시 서고 싶어
(Yeah ireohge neocheoreom yeppeun kkocceul ango ne ape dasi seogo sipeo)
((Yeah, while holding a flower that is as pretty as you, I want to stand in front of you again))
Yeah 시절보다 멋진 모습을 하고 앞에 나타나고 싶어
(Yeah geu sijeolboda deo meosjin moseubeul hago ne ape natanago sipeo)
((Yeah, with a better self than back in those times, I want to appear in front of you))
Yeah 익숙했던 시간들을 손끝으로 그려 돌지 않는 시계처럼 제자리서 울어
(Yeah iksukhaessdeon sigandeureul sonkkeuteuro geuryeo dolji anhneun sigyecheoreom jejariseo ureo)
((Yeah, I’m drawing out those familiar times with my fingertips, crying in this same place like a broken clock))
반짝이던 천사 같은 아름다운 맘껏 안아보고 싶어 다시 보고 싶어
(Banjjagideon neol cheonsa gateun neol areumdaun neol mamkkeot anabogo sipeo kkok dasi bogo sipeo)
((The dazzling you, the angelic you, the beautiful you, I want to hold you with all my heart, I want to see you again))

So beautiful beautiful 어디선가 울고 있진 않을까
(So beautiful, beautiful eodiseonga ulgo issjin anheulkka)
((So beautiful, beautiful, I wonder if you were crying somewhere))
떠나지마 가지마 사랑한단 거짓말 어떤 말이든 좋으니까
(Tteonajima gajima saranghandan geojismal eotteon marideun joheunikka)
((Don’t leave, don’t go, I love you, it’s a lie, whatever words you say, it would be nice for me))
Oh 그리워 그리워 그리워 멀어지던 너의 마지막 그리워
(Oh geuriwo geuriwo geuriwo meoreojideon neoui majimak geu mal geuriwo)
((Oh I miss you, I miss you, I miss you, those last words by you who drifted away from me, I miss you))
낯설어 두려워 네가 필요해 이제야 느끼는 내가 너무 싫어
(Naccseoreo duryeowo nega piryohae ijeya neukkineun naega neomu sirheo)
((It’s strange, I’m afraid, I need you, I hate myself for realizing this only now))

바보같이 아쉬움 많은 노래가 하늘에 닿기를
(Babogatji aswium manheun noraega haneure dahgireul)
((This foolish song that is filled with regret, I hope it could reach the sky))
당신 향해 밤새운 기도가 마음에 닿기를
(Dangsin hyanghae bamsaeun nae gidoga maeume dahgireul)
((My prayer that has spent all night in tears, I hope it could reach your heart))

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