Don't Wanna Cry



Have you ever felt like crying but at the same time you know it all too well that you should not cry? Have you ever got this feeling that you should do something instead of crying but at the same time crying is all that you can do at the moment? Well I’ve been there, done that, too many times before. Have you ever felt like you know there are things you have to say that would make things better, but at the same time there are no words that could come out from your mouth and only tears that are coming out from your eyes? Have you ever felt like you know you have to come to your sense in order to make things better, but at the same time you just cannot lie to yourself that you are not fine at all and you cannot come to your sense because all of the emotion just takes over you and you just cannot stop crying? Well I’ve been there, done that, too many times before. And at times, I despise myself for expressing all emotions through crying; though people say that it’s not because we are weak, but because we have a delicate heart instead.

“You’re the only one I care for, where have you gone? Did you leave because you don’t like me anymore?” –SEVENTEEN, Don’t Wanna Cry (울고 싶지 않아)

“Don’t Wanna Cry (울고 싶지 않아)” is performed by South Korean boy group, SEVENTEEN (also widely known as the acronym ‘SVT’). It was released on May 22nd 2017 as the lead single taken from the group’s fourth extended play, “Al1”. The music video for “Don’t Wanna Cry (울고 싶지 않아)”, directed by Jo Beomjin of VM Project, was premiered on MBC Music on the same day as the EP release. The electro-pop hip-hop ballad track was composed by one of SVT’s members, Woozi, along with Bumzu, with Bumzu alone did the arrangement for the song. The lyrics were written by Bumzu along with SVT’s members Woozi, S.Coups, Hoshi, and Jeonghan. Lyrically, it follows the story of someone who is being left by their loved one, for having said the words that they do not even mean to say. As they try to be strong and looking for their loved one in order to get them back, they try to hold back their tears as the emotions are taking over them.


"Al1" mini album cover | source: allkpop.com

Some people just cannot express their feelings well through verbal words; for some feelings are hard to explain because they are too sincere about it. No matter how hard they try, all the words in the world cannot seem enough to describe the feelings they have. And those words that are left unsaid have taken their love away. And they are left alone in the end. “Because I love you so much, there aren’t enough words to describe my love, no matter whatever words I try to say. You’re the only one I care for, where have you gone? Did you leave because you don’t like me anymore?” And they are left wondering alone on the street, looking for their love that has left. And even the street they used to know seems strange without the presence of their loved ones. It’s only emptiness that remains as they wander alone along that street; wishing their love to be looking for them too. “This street that used to be familiar now seems unfamiliar, is this really the street that I know? I ask myself; what if that person is looking for me? I’m looking for you right now.”
Some people have a delicate heart that no matter what emotion they feel, it all comes out to tears. They cry when they are too sad, too lonely, too afraid, too disgust, too angry, and even too happy. Because finding words to say is so much harder, they cry instead. They cry in desperation reaching out for their loved ones. They cry in hopes waiting for their loved ones. “Don’t joke around; I know you’re right there. It feels like you’ll be coming, so I just keep waiting. I must find you, because if I cry now, I may not be able to see you. I need to find you, I need to go, but tears well up and things are getting blurry.” They know they should not cry for the tears are blocking their vision in order to see things through and find their loved ones, but they just cannot help it. They know they should not cry for other people would think that they are weak for crying and that the weak people don’t deserve love, but as much as they are being sincere about their feeling, they just cannot help but crying. “Don’t wanna cry; a lot of tears have welled up, but I don’t wanna cry.”
And crying; for some people, crying is the natural reaction to the deepest and most sincere emotion. Their mouth can lie by saying things that are in the contrary of what they feel. Even their brain can deceive their mind. But the heart cannot lie; and tears are the honest proof of what their heart really feels. And being left by their loved ones brings tears to them. “I’m fine; I’m not fine. I don’t want to see you; I really want to see you. Even though saying that you’re not in my heart is a lie, I’ve got to say it, because my heart doesn’t listen to my words like my mind does. Come back, come back, come back, how can I live as one when I’ve lost my half?” They know that instead of crying, they must do something to find their loved ones. They know that instead of crying, they must speak their feelings to their loved ones. They know that instead of crying, they need to come to their senses. Yet they need to cry it out in order to come to their senses. Some people are just like that; it doesn’t mean that they are weak. “When we see each other again; don’t wanna cry.”


Seventeen for the "Al1" mini album jacket photo | source: Pledis Entertainment

Some people find it hard to speak up their most sincere feeling. If you are a kind of person who finds it easy to speak up your most sincere feeling, you might find it ridiculous that there are people who can’t. You might find them being pretentious, or even hypocrite. However, you need to understand that there are people who cannot easily speak up their most sincere feeling, or being honest about their feeling through verbal words, or tell the truth. It doesn’t mean that they are a big liar, or pretentious, or hypocrite. It’s that they are too afraid. They have many fears that are built up from their past experience. They’ve been rejected before. Hence they are afraid. It’s not that they can never speak up, being honest, and tell the truth. It’s just that they need time to do that all. If that person is significant for you, and if you really care for them, then what you have to do is being patient towards them. And if they cry and it makes you frustrated, please don’t lose your patience. It’s not that they are weak. It’s just that they have a delicate heart, and a fragile one. Hence it needs to be handled with care and softly. They don’t want to cry. They just need time; and encouragement as well as assurance so that they feel safe to speak up, being honest, and tell the truth.

“Come back; how can I live as one when I’ve lost my half?” –SEVENTEEN, Don’t Wanna Cry (울고 싶지 않아)




울고 싶지 않아 울고 싶지 않아
(Ulgo shipji ana ulgo shipji ana)
((Don’t wanna cry, don’t wanna cry))
사랑해서 사랑한다는 말이 부족해서 어떤 말을 꺼내봐도
(Saranghaeseo saranghandaneun mari bujokhaeseo geu eotteon mareul kkeonaebwado)
((Because I love you so much, there aren’t enough words to describe my love, no matter whatever words I try to say))
하나만 아끼던 두고서 어디 거니 내가 싫어 어어 져서 멀리 거니
(Neo hanaman akkideon nal dugoseo eodi gan geoni naega shireo eoeo jyeoseo meolli gan geoni)
((You’re the only one I care for, where have you gone? Did you leave because you don’t like me anymore?))
장난치지 거기 있는 알아 나타날 같아 마냥 기다리다
(Jangnanchiji ma geogi itneun geo ara natanal geo gata manyang gidarida)
((Don’t joke around, I know you’re right there, it feels like you’ll be coming, so I just keep waiting))
찾아가야 찾아가야 지금 울면 볼지 모르니까
(Neol chajagaya dwae chajagaya dwae jigeum ulmyeon mot bolji moreunikka)
((I must find you, I must find you, because if I cry now, I may not be able to see you))

울고 싶지 않아 울고 싶지 않아 눈물은 많지만 울고 싶지 않아
(Ulgo shipji ana ulgo shipji ana nunmureun manchiman ulgo shipji ana)
((Don’t wanna cry, don’t wanna cry, a lot of tears have welled up, but I don’t wanna cry))

낯설지 않은 길이 낯설다 아는 맞는지 내게 묻지요
(Nasseolji aneun gil i giri nasseolda aneun gil matneunji naege tto mudjiyo)
((This street that used to be familiar now seems unfamiliar, is this really the street that I know? I ask myself))
혹시나 사람 찾고 있지 않을까 나는 지금 찾고 있어요
(Hokshina geu saram nal chatgo itji aneulkka naneun jigeum neol chatgo isseoyo)
((What if that person is looking for me? I’m looking for you right now))
장난치지 거기 있는 알아 나타날 같아 마냥 기다리다
(Jangnanchiji ma geogi itneun geo ara natanal geo gata manyang gidarida)
((Don’t joke around, I know you’re right there, it feels like you’ll be coming, so I just keep waiting))
찾아가야 가야 하는데 눈물 고여 점점 흐려져
(Neol chajagaya dwae gaya haneunde nunmul goyeo jeomjeom heuryeojyeo)
((I need to find you, I need to go, but tears well up and things are getting blurry))

울고 싶지 않아 울고 싶지 않아 눈물은 많지만 울고 싶지 않아
(Ulgo shipji ana ulgo shipji ana nunmureun manchiman ulgo shipji ana)
((Don’t wanna cry, don’t wanna cry, a lot of tears have welled up, but I don’t wanna cry))

괜찮아 ( 괜찮아) 보고 싶지 않아 (너무 보고 싶어)
(Nan gwaenchana (an gwaenchana) neo bogo shipji ana (neomu bogo shipeo))
((I’m fine (I’m not fine), I don’t want to see you (I really want to see you)))
맘에 없는 말들로 거짓말이라도 해야 해야
(Mame eopneun maldeullo geojitmarirado haeya dwae haeya dwae)
((Even though saying that you’re not in my heart is a lie, I’ve got to say it, got to say it))
생각처럼 맘이 말을 듣지 않으니까
(Saenggakcheoreom mami mareul deudji aneunikka)
((Because my heart doesn’t listen to my words like my mind does))
돌아와 돌아와 돌아와 절반이 없는데 어떻게 하나로 살아 울고 싶지 않아
(Dorawa dorawa dorawa jeolbani eopneunde eotteoke hanaro sara)
((Come back, come back, come back, how can I live as one when I’ve lost my half?))

울고 싶지 않아 울고 싶지 않아 눈물은 많지만 울고 싶지 않아
(Ulgo shipji ana ulgo shipji ana ulgo shipji ana nunmureun manchiman ulgo shipji ana)
((Don’t wanna cry, don’t wanna cry, a lot of tears have welled up, but I don’t wanna cry))
울고 싶지 않아 우리 다시 울고 싶지 않아
(Ulgo shipji ana uri dashi bol ttae ulgo shipji ana)
((Don’t wanna cry, when we see each other again, don’t wanna cry))

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