Memory of the Wind




Pain changes people, and self-healing is the hardest thing to do after all. It’s a process that requires a series of self-acceptance. Moreover, it’s harder when we face a series of self-rejection along the way. However, that is the process we have to get through. And that is how we will grow through. I used to think that whenever I have done with my past self, then I would eventually be able to love again. On the other hand, I wonder whether that could be done simultaneously; healing ourselves while learning to love again. And I always hope I find that place one day; a place where the chaos inside me is understood, and my heart feels at home. Now that I finally found someone to call home, I realize that it is possible to heal ourselves as well as learn to love again at the same time. Since I do both right now. And yes, it is only possible if we meet the right person; a significant one who becomes the home. The pain from my past may come time after time like a memory that is brought by the wind that blows, but as long as I know that there is a home I can always have and come back to, I believe I can always overcome it, for I can finally accept those memories as a part of me. And there will come a day when I can finally smile with teary eyes from happiness.

When the wind blows and quivers my heart, I close my eyes before the time that has passed by. The silent trembling that sweeps me by; I open my ears and listen carefully to that soft sound.” –Naul, Memory of the Wind (바람기억)

Listening to a certain song can certainly help the process of self-healing. For me personally, when talking about self-healing, then it reminds me of this particular song. It’s a Korean song titled “Memory of the Wind (바람기억)”, performed by one of Korean prominent male vocalists, Naul. He is a member of male vocal group, Brown Eyed Soul. “Memory of the Wind (바람기억)” was released on September 20th 2012 as the lead track for Naul’s second solo studio album, “Principle of My Soul”. The soul ballad track became his representative song as the song showcased poetic lyrics with a melody that perfectly suits his pitch and range. “Memory of the Wind (바람기억)” was a self-composed track written by Naul himself. An official accompany music video, starring actor Lee Ki Woo and actress Jung Eun Chae, was released on September 19th 2012. Listening to this song while watching the MV can bring multi-interpretation towards “Memory of the Wind (바람기억)”. However, in this lyrical approach, I interpret this song as the depiction of someone who has found closure and made peace with themselves. They use the pain and memories from the past as lessons to move forward with smile and strong steps. Hence they feel blessed. They cherish their past, therefore they’re ready to accept and embrace their future.


"Principle of My Soul" album cover | source: hellokpop.com

I always think that we have to find closure with ourselves first before we can finally move forward. For every pain that we feel, for the heartache that we got, for every broken promise, for every unfinished business, we must find closure for ourselves in order for us to be able to accept and embrace our own selves. Hence, when we begin a new relationship, we will deal the problem from the current one instead of bringing along the problem from our previous relationship. For me personally, the indicator of finding closure is when we can make peace with ourselves. And it is in the way we are able to look back at our past with a light heart and sincere smile. That is when we know we have forgiven though we never forget. And we must not forget, because we use them as a lesson for the next days to come. We’re not haunted by them, but blessed instead. “When the wind blows and quivers my heart, I close my eyes before the time that has passed by. The silent trembling that sweeps me by; I open my ears and listen carefully to that soft sound.”
Every now and then, the memories from our past will always come and greet us. When we are able to greet them with smile, and perhaps with tears from happiness and relief, that is when we know we have found closure and made peace with ourselves. Losing someone significant, traumatic events from our surroundings, the pain and heartache from it; all of them could change us in a moment. They shaped us. They deformed and reformed us into what we are today. And as time goes by, they become memories lingered deep inside our heart and mind. They become a part of us; a part that we need to embrace and accept. They’re a part we can use for us to be a better person from time to time; a sensible person who understand well about sympathy and empathy, and perhaps better than anyone else who isn’t through the same as ours. “The growing pieces of life that breathe inside me, when they bump against and pass me by, I will look at that place. The short memories of life that are inside me, when they bump against and pass me by, I will look over there.”
And yes, we will grow through what we go through. I might never be cured, but I know I have found closure with myself. I might never be healed, but I know I have grown through the pain. And now that I have found the significant one to call home, I know that I could and would grow stronger than ever. Though the storm may come every now and then, I know that this home will always be there. For all of the things that we believe, for all of our love, for all of our eternal promises, as long as I remember them and as long as I am remembered, then it is more than enough to make me walk ahead with powerful steps. For every of our meeting, for every of our separation, for all of our vague memories, as long as I feel loved and as long as I love them sincerely, then it is more than enough to make me be able to put a smile on my face. And I feel blessed, even with the pain. “Our belief, our love, those eternal promises; if I remember them, I will strongly walk forward. Our encounter, our farewell, those faded memories, if I was truly loved in them, a smile will come upon my face.”


Actress Jung Eun Chae in the music video of "Memory of the Wind" | source: 1theK YouTube

It’s been five months since my partner and I are in a long-distance relationship. Many things have happened between us. It wasn’t always a good thing, but wasn’t always a bad thing too. One thing for sure is that I know we have grown so much until this point, and we will always grow through what we go through in the future. Commitment isn’t built overnight, and we both still learn to do it. Every now and then, we bring joy and happiness for each other as well as bring pain and suffer towards one another. And every bit of them all is what makes us who we are. They are our lesson as well as our blessing. It is alright if I am hurt in the process; for as long as I know that he will keep his promise and never ceased to be my home, and then I can always get up once again and move forward. It is alright if I have to be the one who is being sacrificed in the process; as long as I can feel loved, and then I can always smile again. I will use all the pain for my growth. I will turn them all into my strength. Hence I can love more sincerely. Hence my soul can be healed even more.

Our belief, our love, those eternal promises; if I remember them, I will strongly walk forward. Our encounter, our farewell, those faded memories, if I was truly loved in them, a smile will come upon my face.” –Naul, Memory of the Wind (바람기억)




바람 불어와 흔들면 지나간 세월에  눈을 감아본다
(Baram bureowa nae mam heundelmyeon jinaga sewore du nuneul gamabonda)
((When the wind blows and quivers my heart, I close my eyes before the time that has passed by))
나를 스치는 고요한 떨림 작은 소리에 귀를 기울여 본다
(Nareul seuchineun goyohan tteollim geu jageun sorie nan gwireul giuryeo bonda)
((The silent trembling that sweeps me by, I open my ears and listen carefully to that soft sound))
안에 숨쉬는 커버린 삶의 조각들이 부딪혀 지날 곳을 바라보리라
(Nae ane sumswineun keobeorin salmeui jogakdeuri nal buditchyeo jinal ttae geu goseul baraborira)
((The growing pieces of life that breathe inside me, when they bump against and pass me by, I will look at that place))

우리의 믿음 우리의 사랑 영원한 약속들을 추억한다면 힘차게 걸으리라
(Urieui mideum urieui sarang geu yeongwonhan yaksokdeureul na chueokhandamyeon himchage georeurira)
((Our belief, our love, those eternal promises, if I remember them, I will strongly walk forward))
우리의 만남 우리의 이별 바래진 기억에 사랑했다면 미소를 띄우리라
(Urieui mannam urieui ibyeol geu baraejin gieoge na saranghaettdamyeon misoreul ttwiurira)
((Our encounter, our farewell, those faded memories, if I was truly loved in them, a smile will come upon my face))

안에 있는 모자란 삶의 기억들이 부딪혀 지날   곳을 바라보리라
(Nae ane ittneun mojaran salmeui gieokdeuri nal buditchyeo jinal ttae geu goseul baraborira)
((The short memories of life that are inside me, when they bump against and pass me by, I will look over there))

우리의 믿음 우리의 사랑 영원한 약속들을 추억한다면 힘차게 걸으리라
(Urieui mideum urieui sarang geu yeongwonhan yaksokdeureul na chueokhandamyeon himchage georeurira)
((Our belief, our love, those eternal promises, if I remember them, I will strongly walk forward))
우리의 만남 우리의 이별 바래진 기억에 사랑했다면 미소를 띄우리라
(Urieui mannam urieui ibyeol geu barajin gieokge na saranghaettdamyeon misoreul ttwiurira)
((Our encounter, our farewell, those faded memories, if I was truly loved in them, a smile will come upon my face))

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