Like A Stone



I believe that there is always a blessing-in-disguise in everything that people call as misfortune. These past three month I’ve learnt a lot from loneliness and waiting. In loneliness, people are given the chance to think about, for, and by themselves. Most of the time, without we even realize it, we often think about everything else but ourselves; we even do some thinking for the sake of everybody else but ourselves; and we think with other people around us, which often makes us forget about what we’re really thinking and just absorb what others are thinking instead. In waiting, people are given the time to stop for a moment, take a deep breath, have a rest, and be prepared to take another step forward. Most of the time, without we even realize it, we move in a very fast pace in this world; we don’t even have time to think through what we’re doing. We don’t even have time to analyze and re-analyze about what we’ve been through. By having to get through the loneliness and waiting, we are actually given chance and time to not being hard on ourselves.

In your house I long to be, room by room, patiently. I’ll wait for you there like a stone. I’ll wait for you there alone. –Audioslave, Like A Stone

Regarding to this feeling I have currently, I’m in the mood to talk about a song titled “Like A Stone”. It’s a rock alternative track performed by American rock supergroup, Audioslave. It was released on January 28th 2003 as the second single taken from the band’s eponymous debut studio album, “Audioslave”. The lyrics were written by the band’s front-man Chris Cornell, while the music composing and arranging was done by Audioslave. The music video for “Like A Stone” was directed by Meiert Avis. I remember first time I fell in love with this song was when I was in junior high school. I used to think that it’s a song about love and romance; about someone who waits in loneliness for their beloved ones. However, as I grew up, I learned that this song is beyond all of that. Lyrically, it’s very spiritual. It talks about someone who reflects on their life and how they see the afterlife that it’s about to come. As Chris Cornell said in an interview, “It’s a song about concentrating on the afterlife you would hope for, rather than the normal monotheistic approach: You work really hard all your life to be a good person and a moral persona and fair and generous, and then you go to hell anyway.”


"Like A Stone" single cover | source: en.wikipedia.org

People need to know what sadness feels like in order for them to be able to know what happiness is. We need to be lost in order to find ourselves again, most of the times. That is just how life is. I’m not a religious person, yet I believe that I’m a spiritual person. I believe in the greater power people refer to God. I find it common that when people see other people around them feel sad or lost, they tell them to return to God. In fact, I do return to God every single time. However, it’s not always in a form of praying that is stated by a certain religion. I turn to God in my own way; since belief for me is a something very personal I share only with my own creator. And as most people do, I think a lot in my loneliness. I have endless conversations with myself and my own creator; about what I’ve been through and what I’m being through currently. “On a cobweb afternoon, in a room full of emptiness, by a freeway I confess. I was lost in the pages of a book full of death, reading how we’ll die alone. And if we’re good we’ll lay to rest, anywhere we wanna go.”
In the loneliness, I think a lot about death. As I reminisce what I’ve been through in my 27 years of life so far, I always wonder, what have I achieved in this life as myself? Most of the times, we find us unconsciously submit ourselves toward other people’s expectation. However, we cannot please everyone; and we unconsciously keep being hard on ourselves by blaming ourselves for not being able to live up to their expectations. And I always wonder how tiring is a life like that? The loneliness gives me a chance to think through it all. What have I achieved as myself instead of somebody else’s? What have I done in the name of myself instead of someone else’s? Am I at the place where I long to be right now? Do I do it all passionately? Or have I turned into a mechanical human being who works for money, material things, and attributes? “And on my deathbed, I will pray to the gods and the angels; like a pagan to anyone who will take me to heaven, to a place I recall, I was there so long ago. The sky was bruised, the wine was bled, and there you led me on.”
I realize something while I do some thinking in my loneliness: I wait for something. However, what do I wait for? Do I only wait for things to be better again? Do I only wait for things to be worse again? Am I trapped in some kind of life cycle? Waiting teaches me how to be patient, I know. And loneliness gives the answer: I wait for love, a true and real one. “In your house I long to be, room by room, patiently. I’ll wait for you there like a stone. I’ll wait for you there alone.” True and real is rare these days, yet I know I’ve found my true and real one. Hence I understand that the loneliness and the waiting I’m being through currently is worth it. I know I’ve made mistakes, but I’m just a human. I know I need to be grateful, but I’m just a human. Never stop learning is the only thing I can do best. And loneliness and waiting, though it’s very painful, it helps me to learn more and more. “And on I read until the day was gone, and I sat in regret of all the things I’ve done. For all that I’ve blessed, and all that I’ve wronged, in dreams until my death, I will wander on.”


"Audioslave" album cover | source: en.wikipedia.org

I believe that God has reason for sending us to live in this life. And I believe that the reason is for us to learn. Why we were born as we are, why we did things, why we met some people; all of it has its own meaning. And I believe that the meaning is something we can achieve by learning. Everything we’ve been through, every conversation we had, every moment we shared; they have meaning. If only we are willing to open up our mind in order to do some reflection and contemplation, then I believe that we’re blessed with the ability to understand everything around us clearer and better. Moreover, we will be blessed with the ability to have sympathy and empathy towards people around us better. Hence we won’t be an egocentric human being who only thinks about themselves, in which, sadly, is the condition of most people in this world currently. The more we learn, the more we understand. And the more we understand, the more we are supposed to be humble with our knowledge. And we don’t need to be religious to know that; but we have to be spiritual in order to be able to do that. After all, human without spirit is just a heartless machine. So, have you asked yourself whether you are a machine or a human being?

And on I read until the day was gone, and I sat in regret of all the things I’ve done. For all that I’ve blessed, and all that I’ve wronged, in dreams until my death, I will wander on. –Audioslave, Like A Stone




On a cobweb afternoon, in a room full of emptiness
By a freeway I confess, I was lost in the pages of a book full of death, reading how we’ll die alone
And if we’re good we’ll lay to rest, anywhere we wanna go

In your house I long to be, room by room, patiently
I’ll wait for you there like a stone, I’ll wait for you there alone

And on my deathbed I will pray to the gods and the angels
Like a pagan to anyone who will take me to heaven, to a place I recall, I was there so long ago
The sky was bruised, the wine was bled, and there you led me on

In your house I long to be, room by room, patiently
I’ll wait for you there like a stone, I’ll wait for you there alone, alone

And on I read until the day was gone, and I sat in regret of all the things I’ve done
For all that I’ve blessed, and all that I’ve wronged, in dreams until my death I will wander on

In your house I long to be, room by room, patiently
I’ll wait for you there like a stone, I’ll wait for you there alone, alone

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