Blind
Saturday, November 07, 2015
I always wonder one thing
about family: the relationship between children and their father. Many of my
friends have a beautiful relationship with their father, whether they’re men or
women. However, not only a few of my friends have a quite complicated relationship
with their father. Well, as for me, myself, I have a love-hate relationship
with my father. This is where I wonder, how could that be? My partner told me a
story about his relationship with his father, quite a long time ago. He barely
talked about that again since then. I don’t know what has gotten into him, but
today he told me the latest story about his father. And somehow, that makes me
wonder even more. When we hate our father, do we really hate him? When we love our father, do we really love him? Well, like it or not, we didn’t
choose to be someone’s daughter or son. We were born with it. That’s
inevitable. The fourth post for Random
Play is a song titled “Blind”, performed by American band, Lifehouse. The
song was specially written for a father, who has made scars in his child’s
heart.
“After all this time, I never
thought we’d be here, never thought we’d be here, when my love for you was
blind. But I couldn’t make you see it, couldn’t make you see it, that I loved
you more than you’ll ever know; a part of me died when I let you go.”
–Lifehouse, Blind
Released on November 7th
2005, “Blind” was served as the second radio single in support of Lifehouse’s
self-titled third studio album. It was written by the band’s frontman, Jason
Wade. The alternative rock track was inspired by Wade’s relationship with his
estranged father.
As I’ve mentioned above, “Blind”
is written for a father who has made scars in his child’s heart. I don’t know
what it feels like to be a parent, yet I really know how it feels to be a
child, all too well. I don’t know how to be a good parent, yet I really know
what to expect from a parent. Perhaps as a child, we expect too much from our
father. And a pain that comes from the most unexpected person is the pain that
runs the deepest. “I was young but I
wasn’t naive, I watched helpless as he turned around to leave. And still I have
the pain I have to carry, a past so deep that even you could not bury if you
tried.” How could the love still be there when the expectation is being
violated? Yet, how could we hate someone whose blood is streaming inside our
own? Will the pain be fading with time? Perhaps, our love is blind. Perhaps, it’s
blinded by hatred. “I would fall asleep
only in hopes of dreaming, that everything would be like it was before. But
nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting; they disappear as reality is
crashing to the floor.”
I said once to my partner, we weren’t born to live up for our parents’
sins. However, I know how hard it is to neglect the fact that our parents have
affected and influenced so much in how we see the world. We love our father,
or, we were born to love him. “After all
this time, I never thought we’d be here, never thought we’d be here, when my
love for you was blind. But I couldn’t make you see it, couldn’t make you see
it, that I loved you more than you’ll ever know; a part of me died when I let
you go.” My mom said that parents are supposed to be the ones who open the
communication first with their children. From there, hearts will be opened too.
Perhaps, our father just can’t do that. Perhaps they’re just bad at expressing
themselves. Perhaps, we’re bad at that too. “After
all this why, would you ever wanna leave it? Maybe you could not believe it
that my love for you was blind. But I couldn’t make you see it, couldn’t make
you see it, that I loved you more than you will ever know; a part of me died
when I let you go.”
A music video for “Blind”
was released on October 19th 2005. It starred actress Tina Marjorino and actor
Kevin Farley, portraying daughter and father whose relationship depicts the song’s
lyrical content. Coming from Lifehouse, though it’s an underrated song, well, I
really love it.
“After all this why, would you
ever wanna leave it? Maybe you could not believe it that my love for you was
blind. But I couldn’t make you see it, couldn’t make you see it, that I loved
you more than you will ever know; a part of me died when I let you go.”
–Lifehouse, Blind
“I was young but I wasn’t
naive, I watched helpless as he turned around to leave
And still I have the pain I
have to carry, a past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried
After all this time, I never
thought we’d be here
Never thought we’d be here,
when my love for you was blind
But I couldn’t make you see
it, couldn’t make you see it
That I loved you more than
you’ll ever know, a part of me died when I let you go
I would fall asleep only in
hopes of dreaming, that everything would be like it was before
But nights like this it
seems are slowly fleeting, they disappear as reality is crashing to the floor
After all this why, would
you ever wanna leave it?
Maybe you could not believe
it that my love for you was blind
But I couldn’t make you see
it, couldn’t make you see it
That I loved you more than
you will ever know, a part of me died when I let you go
That I loved you more than
you’ll ever know, a part of me died when I let you go”
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