Singing Got Better

Wednesday, May 03, 2017



Someone used to say that everything is a blessing in disguise; that everything happens for a reason. Well I used to say that there is always a right time for everything; that all will eventually fall right into place when it is time. At some time in our life we may meet someone and feel like that person is our whole world; that the world revolves around that person. That person may bring some kind of happiness and joy; a feeling that makes us feel like this life is a better place since that person came into it. At some other time in our life, those things may crumble down and apart. The heaven may turn into hell in just one night. We may find that person is not actually we have known all this time. That person may break our heart and tear it into pieces; and things will change. We begin to see the world differently. We begin to look at it from a different perspective. And there are times when we begin to rise from the dust; collecting our pieces of heart that was scattered before. And that is when we understand and be able to read between the lines. As if this life is like singing a song, our singing got better since that time.

Someday you will probably call me, then I hope you will be a man and congratulate me. Because this is all thanks to you, I’ll prepare a good thank you message for you.” –Ailee, Singing Got Better (노래가 늘었어)

This song I would like to talk the lyrics about today is titled “Singing Got Better (노래가 늘었어)”, performed by Korean singer, Lee Ye Jin, better known by her stage name, Ailee. This up-tempo ballad track was released in a digital format on January 6th 2014 as her third single album. “Singing Got Better (노래가 늘었어)” was written by Ailee’s mentor as well as fellow singer-songwriter, Wheesung. An official accompany music video for the song was released on the same day of the single, starring Lee Joon as Ailee’s love interest (as well as a douche bag ex-boyfriend). The music video was premiered on Mnet on December 31st 2013. Lyrically, “Singing Got Better (노래가 늘었어)” tells a story of a woman who has been through a messy breakup and used it as a motivation to do things she is passionate about and do it well.


"Singing Got Better" single cover | source: YMC Entertainment

In a romance relationship, everything is always beautiful in the beginning. Every beginning is always wonderful in a romance relationship; a blinded romance that happens to most people. When they fall in love, people tend to rotate their world around that significant person. As time goes by and the relationship grows, people become vulnerable, and whether they are aware or unaware about it, they begin to reveal their true selves towards their partner. The thing is, that ‘true self’ is not always acceptable. Hence we will feel like we got deceived by our partner when we find that their ‘true self’ is not acceptable. Naturally, it will make us feel like a fool for being able to date someone like them. Hence it will not make us feel less broken. Anyhow, who would expect to lose dreams we have built all this time? We even lost ourselves in the way sometimes. “I was out of my senses because of your gentleness, your sweetness, your lies. My dream changed, instead of a famous singer, I tried to become a good wife. Really, I was really such a fool; I was really such a fool.”
When they are heartbroken, people tend to lose themselves. We tend to do reckless things that probably will bring damage towards our health, like drinking or not having a sleep. We tend to do those self-harm things. However, sometimes those things are just a part of a self-healing process. After being sober, we will realize that there is so much more to life than the one that has been broken apart before. And that is when we begin to find ourselves again. Indeed, it takes a losing in order to gain something more. And that is when we realize that what has happened before is actually a blessing in disguise; that it was meant to happen in order to give us some lesson about love and life. And it was meant to help us to set some goals in life and achieve them. And we will realize that it is actually a priceless experience for us. “I couldn’t see what’s ahead, it was so hard, I cursed a lot and ruined my own self by drinking. It’s all over now, after losing you, I earned a bigger hope. Really, it’s really so fortunate, it’s really so fortunate.”
When they move on, people tend to be wiser; but well, that is what happens to most people. However, for some people, when they move on, they tend to be sarcastic. And I like it so much when I meet people who are sarcastically wiser after moving on from a disastrous breakup. In my humble opinion, it is a sign that they really have learned the lesson; that they are not trapped in an illusion of ‘the world is fine’. No, the world is not fine. And we have to learn how to accept that. “Someday you will probably call me, then I hope you will be a man and congratulate me. Because this is all thanks to you, I’ll prepare a good thank you message for you.” The world is not fine and we have to learn to live with that; have time for ourselves and make sure we live for our passion. Do things we could not do before; live life to the fullest for the sake of our own selves instead of anybody else. That way we will heal naturally. “My singing got better after breaking up with you, after living crazily with music, all of the song lyrics seemed like my story, so I sang them to death, little by little, my tears dried slowly. Slowly, my tears dried, slowly, I got over you like that.”


Ailee in the music video of "Singing Got Better" | source: YMC Entertainment

People say that revenge is sweet. Well I cannot agree more. I love revenge. As a charming devil, I heart revenge so much to the bones. People also say that showing the better-version of you is the best revenge for the ex-lover. Sadly, I have to say that I do not completely agree with that. I do agree that we have to be a better person after being heartbroken; that the experience of broken heart should and must make us a better person. However, ‘showing’ it will not make any significance. The important thing is ‘feeling’ it. The ugly truth is: our ex-lover will not give a fuck whether they know that we become a better person who lives happier after breaking up with them. Hence what matters the most is that we empower ourselves; not in order to just show it, but in order to feel it ourselves. What we show is just images; a constructed self-representation. Not that it is unimportant at all, but it will not mean a thing unless we truly feel it inside. It is okay to be not okay. It is a motivation; giving us the urge to do things we are passionate about. It is what makes us feel alive. It is the process of self-refinding, self-rediscovery, and self-redefining. And It is how we learn.

My singing got better after breaking up with you, after living crazily with music. All of the song lyrics seemed like my story, so I sang them to death. Little by little, my tears dried slowly.” –Ailee, Singing Got Better (노래가 늘었어)




정신이 나갔었지 너의 자상함에 너의 달콤함에 너의 거짓말에
(Jongsini nagassotji noye jasanghame noye dalkhomhame noye gojitmare)
((I was out of my senses because of your gentleness, your sweetness, your lies))
꿈이 변했었지 유명한 가수보다 좋은 아내가 되려 했지 정말
(Kkumi byonhessotji yumyonghan gasuboda joheun anega dweryo hetji jongmal)
((My dream changed, instead of a famous singer, I tried to become a good wife, really))
정말 바보같았어 정말 바보같았어
(Jongmal babogatasso jongmal babogatasso)
((I was really such a fool, I was really such a fool))

노래가 늘었어 너와 헤어지고 나서 음악에 미쳐 살았더니 모든 노래 가사가
(Norega neurosso nowa heojigo naso eumage micyo saratdoni modeun nore gasaga)
((My singing got better after breaking up with you, after living crazily with music, all of the song lyrics))
얘기 같았어 죽도록 불렀어 조금씩 조금씩 차차 눈물이 말라갔어
(Ne yegi gatasso jukdorok bullosso jogeumsik jogeumsik chacha nunmuri mallagasso)
((Seemed like my story, so I sang them to death, little by little, my tears dried slowly))

눈앞이 캄캄했지 어찌나 힘든지 욕도 많이 했지 속도 버렸지
(Nunaphi khamkhamhetji ocina himdeunji yokdo mani hetji sokdo da boryotji)
((I couldn’t see what’s ahead, it was so hard, I cursed a lot and ruined my own self by drinking))
이젠 끝났어 하나를 잃고  희망을 얻은 거야 정말
(Ijen da keutnasso nan no hanareul ilgo go kheun heimangeul odeun goya jongmal)
((It’s all over now, after losing you, I earned a bigger hope, really))
정말 잘된 일이야 정말 잘된 일이야
(Jongmal jaldwen iriya jongmal jaldwen iriya)
((It’s really so fortunate, it’s really so fortunate))

노래가 늘었어 너와 헤어지고 나서 음악에 미쳐 살았더니 모든 노래 가사가
(Norega neurosso nowa heojigo naso eumage micyo saratdoni modeun nore gasaga)
((My singing got better after breaking up with you, after living crazily with music, all of the song lyrics))
얘기 같았어 죽도록 불렀어 조금씩 조금씩 차차 눈물이 말라갔어
(Ne yegi gatasso jukdorok bullosso jogeumsik jogeumsik chacha nunmuri mallagasso)
((Seemed like my story, so I sang them to death, little by little, my tears dried slowly))

언젠가 너에게 연락이 오겠지 그땐 남자답게 축하해주길 바래
(Onjenga noege yonragi ogetji geuten namjadabge chukhahejugil bare)
((Someday you will probably call me, then I hope you will be a man and congratulate me))
덕분이니까 고맙다는 인사 나도 멋지게 준비해둘게
(Ni dokbuninika gomaptaneun insa nado motjige junbihedulge)
((Because this is all thanks to you, I’ll prepare a good thank you message for you))

노래가 늘었어 너와 헤어지고 나서 음악에 미쳐 살았더니 모든 노래 가사가
(Norega neurosso nowa heojigo naso eumage micyo saratdoni modeun nore gasaga)
((My singing got better after breaking up with you, after living crazily with music, all of the song lyrics))
얘기 같았어 죽도록 불렀어 조금씩 조금씩 차차 눈물이 말라갔어
(Ne yegi gatasso jukdorok bullosso jogeumssik jogeumssik chacha nunmuri mallagasso)
((Seemed like my story, so I sang them to death, little by little, my tears dried slowly))
차차 눈물이 말라갔어 차차 그렇게 잊었어
(Chacha nunmuri mallagasso chacha geurohge nol ijosso)
((Slowly, my tears dried, slowly, I got over you like that))

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