The Love I Have for You

Tuesday, April 18, 2017



People say that love fades. And even my closest friend said that. And even my significant other did too. Does love fade? Does it? Well, I could not say that I do not entirely deny that. Even I used to say that love does fade at some point to some extent. The thing is, now that I have come to this point, I could say that I do not entirely believe that love does fade. In my humble opinion, no, love does not (entirely) fade; love just transforms. It could be partially or entirely, but I do think that love does transform at some point to some extent. The thing is, can we really control feeling? Can we control what we feel and whatnot? Do we have control of it all? When love transforms at some point to some extent, can we control what we feel regarding to that matter? When love transforms, do we have any control of it? People say that we do not have any control upon what we feel, yet we can control what we do about it. In other words, the control is not in the level of feeling, but in the level of act instead. When the love is not reciprocal, the feeling may be uncontainable, but we can bend through the decision we make upon our act. And here lies another problem: we must deal with the pain caused by the uncontainable feeling all by ourselves.

You’re going far away, though there are many things that are still left unsaid. This feeling that I could not say to you, can you see it through my heart? Just like this, I’m still hoping you.” –Min Kyung Hoon, Love You

The lyrics of the song I would like to discuss this time is a Korean song titled “Love You” It was recorded by the front-man of rock band, Buzz, Min Kyung Hoon for the soundtrack of tvN’s drama series, “The K2”. The power ballad track was released on October 22nd 2016 as a single album, “The K2 OST Part 4”. It was later released as a part of “The K2 Original Sound Track” album on November 11th 2016. This song served as a theme song for the lead characters couple in the drama series, Go Anna and Kim Je Ha, portrayed by Im Yoona (of Girls’ Generation) and (gorgeous actor) Ji Chang Wook, respectively. The visual couple portrayed a bodyguard (Je Ha) who falls for the one he has to protect (Anna). With all of the circumstances around them, Je Ha and Anna cannot just profess their love easily. However, that does not change their deep affection towards each other too.


"The K2 OST Part 4" single album cover | source: wiki.d-addicts.com

In some cases that I found, falling in love is not done intentionally. People cannot fall in love for some other people just like that. They may have some interest for some other people just like that or intentionally (whether it is in the conscious level or subconscious), but that is not love. Love takes time. Loves needs time to grow. And people can never plan to fall in love. It just happens. And they know when it happens. And when it happens, they can never plan how deep they fall in love is. Yet the worst thing happens when the feeling you have can never reach that person. Unrequited love, indeed, is a mental block that gives us barrier; a barrier that holding us from saying things we really feel. Unrequited love holds us back from telling things we truly have. Unrequited love holds us back from showing things we really want. “You’re going far away, though there are many things that are still left unsaid. This feeling that I could not say to you, can you see it through my heart? Just like this, I’m still hoping you.”
People can never plan how deep they fall in love. On the other hand, they can never plan to not having expectation. And the worst thing happens when the feeling you have is not reciprocal; when the expectation does not meet the reality. Our feeling is wasted away since we leave it being left unsaid. Our effort is meeting a dead end since we let it going to waste. Ironically, though we cannot say anything, we still have hope that the person would be able to see right through our heart. Ironically, though we cannot do anything to hold that person from going away, we still want to be with them. That is just the thing about unrequited feeling. Though there is nothing we can do in the level of actions, we cannot control anything in the level of feeling. Hence unrequited love is the most hopeless and helpless kind of love that is ever existed in this life. “I couldn’t give a lot to you, in the end, this is all that I can give. Now that you’re getting farther away, I can’t even catch you. However, I still want you.”
The thing about falling in an unrequited love is (from what I have seen in some people) that we cannot lie to ourselves. We may be able to lie to other person; however, we are the ones who would feel the pain eventually. The thing about being in an unrequited love is (from what I got from some people) that we cannot switch it off just like that. We may be able to hide our feeling away; however, we are the ones who could understand how deep it actually has become eventually. The thing about unrequited love is that the more we try to forget it, the more we remember; the more we try to erase it, the more it appears; the more we try to end it, the more it got deeper. We just cannot stop it. “Love you, even I try to forget you, even if I try to end this feeling I have for you. The more I try to erase you, only the more longing feeling for you that remains. Love you, even if I try to stop this feeling from keep on growing, I just can’t do that. I love you, I love you again even today, and again even tomorrow.”


Ji Chang Wook as Kim Je Ha (left) and Im Yoona as Go Anna (right) in the drama series "The K2" | source: tvN

There are things that cause a love into being an unrequited love. However, it all comes down to one main problem: the fear to confess the feeling. The fear itself can be caused by some conditions that create a mental block; such as when someone falls in love with their best friend or when a bodyguard falls in love with their VIP, just like what happens in the drama series “The K2”. And when the fear consumes us, many negative thoughts follow to come, and the worst is the inferiority. We will feel like we lack of many things that we do not deserve to be with that person. We feel like we cannot do much that we are inappropriate to be with that person. We feel like we are inadequate to be with that person. Hence it all builds the mental block. Hence we feel like we cannot reach and catch that person. Hence it all builds the pain and hollow inside our heart. However, when the feeling is being left unsaid, how could that person be able to understand our feeling? No, they never could. All we do is just hurting ourselves instead.

Love you, even I try to forget you, even if I try to end this feeling I have for you. The more I try to erase you, only the more longing feeling for you that remains.” –Min Kyung Hoon, Love You



멀리 가고 있네요 아직 못한 말이 많은데
(Meolli gago itneyo ajik mothan mari manheunde eum)
((You’re going far away, though there are many things that are still left unsaid))
끝내 전해주지 못했던 보일까요
(Kkeutnae jeonhaejuji mothaetdeon nae mam boilkkayo)
((This feeling that I could not say to you, can you see it through my heart?))
아직도 이렇게 그댈 바라고 있죠
(Ajikdo nan ireohge geudael barago itjyo)
((Just like this, I’m still hoping you))

Love you, 잊어도 잊어도 끝내려 해도 그대가 그대를
(Love you, ijeodo ijeodo kkeutnaeryeo haedo geudaega geudaereul)
((Love you, even I try to forget you, even if I try to end this feeling I have for you))
지워내려 하면 수록 자꾸 그리움만 남네요 그대
(Jiwonaeryeo hamyeon hal surok jakku geuriumman namneyo geudae)
((The more I try to erase you, only the more longing feeling for you that remains))
Love you, 마음을 막아도 커지는 막을 수가 없죠
(Love you, maeumeul magado deo keojineun geon mageul suga eopsjyo)
((Love you, even if I try to stop this feeling from keep on growing, I just can’t do that))
사랑합니다 사랑합니다 오늘도 그대를
(Saranghamnida saranghamnida oneuldo geudaereul)
((I love you, I love you again even today))

많이 주지 못했죠 결국 이것 밖에 안된걸
(Manhi juji mothaetjyo gyeolguk igeot bakke andoengeol eum)
((I couldn’t give a lot to you, in the end, this is all that I can give))
이제 멀어지는 그대를 잡을 수도 없죠
(Ije meoreojineun geudaereul jabeul sudo eopsjyo)
((Now that you’re getting farther away, I can’t even catch you))
그래도 여전히 그댈 원하고 있죠
(Geuraedo nan yeojeonhi geudael wonhago itjyo)
((However, I still want you))

Love you, 잊어도 잊어도 끝내려 해도 그대가 그대를
(Love you, ijeodo ijeodo kkeutnaeryeo haedo geudaega geudaereul)
((Love you, even I try to forget you, even if I try to end this feeling I have for you))
지워내려 하면 수록 자꾸 그리움만 남네요 그대
(Jiwonaeryeo hamyeon hal surok jakku geuriumman namneyo geudae)
((The more I try to erase you, only the more longing feeling for you that remains))
Love you, 마음을 막아도 커지는 막을 수가 없죠
(Love you, maeumeul magado deo keojineun geon mageul suga eopsjyo)
((Love you, even if I try to stop this feeling from keep on growing, I just can’t do that))
사랑합니다 사랑합니다 오늘도 그대를 내일도 그대를
(Saranghamnida saranghamnida oneuldo geudaereul eum naeildo geudaereul)
((I love you, I love you again even today, and again even tomorrow))

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