Who We Are

Monday, March 27, 2017



Have you ever imagined if you could live forever? Do you think it is a blessing? Or do you think that it is a curse? If we could live forever but we are the only one in this world who could do that, just imagine how lonely that life could be. Forever is a lonely thing. We stay the same while watching all people we cherish the most are slowly getting older one by one. We are still here while watching all people we hold most dear are passing away one by one. Well, I guess there is reason why human does not live forever. With the time given, we are given the chance to find who we are. Along the way, most of the time, we find ourselves in the way we love someone. Along the way, most of the time, we are able to define ourselves in the way we cherish the person we hold most dear. We find it in the time given to spend with that person. We define it in the time given to spend with our significant other. No matter how many times has passed and no matter how far the distance we have taken, we will always remember and be able to recognize that significant other. Perhaps, indeed, every human being has their soul-mate.

Where I am, who I am; this loneliness feels like a prison. Many people have passed by, but they only passed me by as I keep being in this same place; where I am. Who are you? Who are you, a joy that I couldn’t hide? I was even holding on to the crazy dream world I was looking for, where you were clutching upside down; where are you?” –Sam Kim, Who Are You

This time I would like to talk about the song’s lyrics that suit well for your contemplation time. This is a Korean song titled “Who Are You”, performed by Sam Kim for the original soundtrack of the famous drama series, “Goblin”, or also known as “Guardian: The Lonely and Great God”. It was released on December 25th 2016 as single album, “Goblin OST Part 6”, without any official accompany music video. The ballad track’s lyrics follow the sad story of the main character in the drama series, who is able to find his true love after waiting for so many years (nearly a thousand years), only to find out that he won’t be living for too long to spend it together with his significant other.


"Goblin OST Part 6" single album cover | source: wiki.d-addicts.com

There is a saying that human is a lonely creature; we was born alone and we will die alone. And the loneliest time they ever had is when they think about the essence of their existence in this world. Well, if that is true, then we are trapped in nothing but loneliness as we are living. Therefore, as they are living, human tends to search for something that could replace the loneliness. Hence, eventually, everybody needs somebody. Hence, subconsciously, we spend our lifetime to look for someone who could replace our loneliness. And that someone is not just some people. It is someone whom without we realize, we have seen somewhere inside our dreams. It is someone whom, unconsciously, we have already known that they are the one. “Where I am, who I am; this loneliness feels like a prison. Many people have passed by, but they only passed me by as I keep being in this same place; where I am. Who are you? Who are you, a joy that I couldn’t hide? I was even holding on to the crazy dream world I was looking for, where you were clutching upside down, where are you?”
However, love comes with a cost. Our searching is not over by just finding that person who could replace our loneliness. After that, there is another challenge. There is fear; a fear of losing. And suddenly, our heart seems so fragile and our mind seems so insane about it. And suddenly, our body seems so weak and our head seems to be able to explode anytime. Everything seems so terrifying in a sudden. “The gray sky, the frozen clouds; why am I afraid of everything? Our time together is slowly fading away. As I am holding onto your hand that will get farther away, I beg for life.” We will never know what the future brings, but when we fall in love, we are afraid of death, because we know it all too well that death is the only thing that could separate us from our significant other eternally. No matter how brave we used to be before, everybody is helpless in front of love. No matter how strong we were, people are so small before love. “If I hold you tight just like this, I keep forgetting everything about the place that I have to go back to.”
No matter how far we have traveled and how many years have passed by, we will eventually find our significant other when it is the time to. When we meet that someone whom we are destined to be with, we will be able to recognize them since the very beginning, even if we do not realize it. No matter how many place we have been to and how many faces we have met, we will be able to know that they are the one we are looking for. Even if we are the only one who is able to know, we do not mind at all. Even if we are the only one who is able to remember, it is alright. Even if we are the only one who is able to carry all the baggage, we will do that anyway. After all, that is the essence of loving someone; the one. After all, that is the essence of replacing this eternal loneliness we have as a human being. “I will find you, I will recognize you. Wherever you are, however you look, I will certainly look for you. I will remember you, I will look at you. Even if you’re not there, even if countless sun has set, I won’t forget. Even all of your words and faces, I will carry it.”


Gong Yoo and Kim Go Eun in "Goblin" | source: kdramakisses.wordpress.com

For me personally, when I fall for someone, I tend to fall deeply and sincerely. Whatever it takes, I would take it anyway. Whatever the price, I would pay anyway. Whatever it costs, I would live to it anyway. Perhaps it is truly embodied in me that a human is a lonely creature living a lonely life in a lonely world. Hence when I am in love with someone, I love completely, since that person is filling my loneliness. And I could recognize that this person is my significant other even since the first time I met him. Therefore, wherever life takes me, I will always come back to him. Whomever I meet along the way, his face is the only one that I will always recognize among the crowds. And whenever life takes me, I will always long for the time I spend with him. Since every time I spend with him is what defining me as a human. Since every moment I have with him is the way I find myself. Since I am who I am when I am with him, and I love the way I am when I am with him. And I will not let it go even if time burns my body into ashes and rusts my soul into dust.

The gray sky, the frozen clouds; why am I afraid of everything? Our time together is slowly fading away. As I am holding onto your hand that will get farther away, I beg for life.” –Sam Kim, Who Are You



Where I am, who I am 감옥같은 쓸쓸함
(Where I am, who I am, gamokgateun i sseulsseulham)
((Where I am, who I am, this loneliness feels like a prison))
많은 사람들이 지나갔지만 모두 나를 지나가기만 했던 where I am
(Manheun saramdeuri jinagatjiman modu nareul jinagagiman haetdeon i got, where I am)
((Many people have passed by, but they only passed me by as I keep being in this same place, where I am))
Who are you? Who are you? 감출 없는 기쁨
(Who are you? Who are you? Gamchul su eopneun gippeum)
((Who are you? Who are you? A joy that I couldn’t hide))
미친듯 세상을 뒤집어 찾던 꿈에서조차 움켜쥐고 있던 그대 where are you?
(Michindeut sesangeul dwijibeo chajdeon kkumeseojocha umkyeojwigo itdeon geudae, where are you?)
((I was even holding on to the crazy dream world I was looking for, where you were clutching upside down, where are you?))

내가 찾아낼께 내가 알아볼께
(Naega kkok chajanaelkke naega neol arabolkke)
((I will find you, I will recognize you))
니가 있는 어디든 모습이 어떻든 알아볼게
(Niga itneun got eodideun moseubi eotteohdeun kkok arabolge)
((Wherever you are, however you look, I will certainly look for you))
내가 기억할께 내가 바라볼께
(Naega kkok gieokhalkke naega neol barabolkke)
((I will remember you, I will look at you))
니가 없는 곳에서도 수많은 해가 져도 잊지 않을께
(Niga eopneun goseseodo sumanheun haega jyeodo ijji anheulkke)
((Even if you’re not there, even if countless sun has set, I won’t forget))
너의 말투 표정 하나까지 담아갈께
(Neoui maltu pyojeong hanakkaji damagalkke)
((Even all of your words and faces, I will carry it))

흐린 하늘 멈춘 구름 모든게 두려울까
(Heurin haneul meomchun gureum wae modeunge duryeoulkka)
((The gray sky, the frozen clouds, why am I afraid of everything?))
너와 있는 시간이 느려지고 자꾸 멀어질 손을 붙잡고 있어 I beg for life
(Neowa itneun sigani neuryeojigo jakku meoreojil ni soneul butjapgo isseo, I beg for life)
((Our time together is slowly fading away, as I am holding onto your hand that will get farther away, I beg for life))

내가 찾아낼께 내가 알아볼께
(Naega kkok chajanaelkke naega neol arabolkke)
((I will find you, I will recognize you))
니가 있는 어디든 모습이 어떻든 알아볼게
(Niga itneun got eodideun moseubi eotteohdeun kkok arabolge)
((Wherever you are, however you look, I will certainly look for you))
내가 기억할께 내가 바라볼께
(Naega kkok gieokhalkke naega neol barabolkke)
((I will remember you, I will look at you))
니가 없는 곳에서도 수많은 해가 져도 잊지 않을께
(Niga eopneun goseseodo sumanheun haega jyeodo ijji anheulkke)
((Even if you’re not there, even if countless sun has set, I won’t forget))

내가 이렇게 안고 있으면 자꾸 모두 잊어 버리게 내가 돌아가야 하는곳
(Naega neol ireohge kkok ango isseumyeon jakku modu ijeo beorige dwae naega doragaya haneungot)
((If I hold you tight just like this, I keep forgetting everything about the place that I have to go back to))

내가 찾아낼께 내가 알아볼께
(Naega kkok chajanaelkke naega neol arabolkke)
((I will find you, I will recognize you))
니가 있는 어디든 모습이 어떻든 알아볼게
(Niga itneun got eodideun moseubi eotteohdeun kkok arabolge)
((Wherever you are, however you look, I will certainly look for you))
내가 기억할께 내가 바라볼께
(Naega kkok gieokhalkke naega neol barabolkke)
((I will remember you, I will look at you))
니가 없는 곳에서도 수많은 해가 져도 잊지 않을께
(Niga eopneun goseseodo sumanheun haega jyeodo ijji anheulkke)
((Even if you’re not there, even if countless sun has set, I won’t forget))
너의 말투 표정 하나까지 담아갈께
(Neoui maltu pyojeong hanakkaji damagalkke)
((Even all of your words and faces, I will carry it))

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