Jealous

Wednesday, January 25, 2017



It is ironic when people say that there is no reason to feel sad when there are actually many things that could be the source of sadness. One of them is jealousy; a thing that comes from the feeling when we love someone too much and too deep until the point that we are infatuated with that person. Well, life is indeed full of irony. People say that love is a beautiful and wonderful thing that could bring happiness. However, they also say that every overrated thing is not good. So, what if the love is overrated? Is it bad for us? Is it dangerous? Well, some people may say that it is, while some other may say that it is not. People can have their own opinions regarding to this matter, but I personally thing that everything, whether it is overrated or not, always has both good and bad consequences. Love comes along with jealousy; it’s natural. And jealousy brings sadness; it is also natural. It doesn’t mean that we love less or we insincerely love. On the other hand, we just love; that’s it. And it is natural for people who love that they feel jealous and sad.

I’m jealous of the nights that I don’t spend with you. I’m wondering who you lay next to, oh, I'm jealous of the nights. I’m jealous of the love; love that was in here, gone for someone else to share. Oh, I’m jealous of the love.” –Labrinth, Jealous

This is a song titled “Jealous”, performed by English singer, Timothy McKenzie, or well-known as Labrinth. It was written by Labrinth himself along with Josh Kear and Natalie Hemby, and was arranged by Gustave Rudman. It was released on November 23rd 2014 and served as the second single taken from the upcoming Labrinth’s second studio album, “Take Me to the Truth”. The accompany music video for the song was debuted on October 31st 2014. “Jealous” is a heartbreaking ballad that Labrinth actually wrote for one of his parents, who left the family when he was four years old. He said in an interview, “A lot of people have been through that experience. It’s kind of written from the perspective of how my family felt at the time, but I wanted to write it so anyone could dig into the song and relate to it to their own situation.”

"Jealous" single cover | source: en.wikipedia.org

When we love someone, it is natural that we want to be close to that person. Hence it is natural that when we cannot be close to them, we feel jealous towards everything that is close to them. We are jealous of everything that is close enough to touch their skin. We are jealous of everything that is close enough to hold their body. We are jealous of everything that is close enough to kiss their lips. Since we long for touching their skin; since we want to hold their body; since we need to kiss their lips; since we crave for expressing our love, but we cannot. “I’m jealous of the rain that falls upon your skin. It’s closer than my hands have been; I’m jealous of the rain. I’m jealous of the wind that ripples through your clothes. It’s closer than your shadow, oh, I’m jealous of the wind.” When we love someone, it is natural that we want to stand beside that person. When we love someone, it is natural that we want to be loved back by that person. Hence it is natural that when we do not get that chance, we feel jealous towards everything that we are not.
“I’m jealous of the nights that I don’t spend with you. I’m wondering who you lay next to, oh, I'm jealous of the nights. I’m jealous of the love; love that was in here, gone for someone else to share. Oh, I’m jealous of the love.” It is natural that when we cannot stand beside the person we love, we feel jealous towards everything that could do that. It is natural that when our love is being unrequited, we feel jealous towards everything that got the love from that person. And the thing about jealousy is that it is drowning us in sadness, pain, resentment, and desperation. It kills us slowly from the inside. Since when we are dealing with jealousy, we are actually dealing with ourselves; our own insecurities. We are actually dealing with our own self-rejection and trust-distrust issues. We are actually dealing with our own fears. We are dying from the feeling of being failed; of all our failures, lacks, and imperfection. “As I sink in the sand, watch you slip through my hands. Oh, as I die here another day ‘cause all I do is cry behind this smile.”
Jealousy is a chronic disease. And the only one who can cure it is our own selves. Though most of the time we do not have any idea how do to that, we are actually the one who knows the way to cure it. We can wish that person to be happy, while we are being drowned in a hollow sadness. We can wish all the best for that person, while are being devastated in a feeling that we are the most pathetic person in the world. We let them go, while we are bleeding inside. We smile to them, while we are crying inside. We tell them that everything is alright, while we are dying inside. “I wished you the best of all this world could give. And I told you when you left me, there’s nothing to forgive. But I always thought you’d come back; tell me, all you found was heartbreak and misery. It’s hard for me to say, I’m jealous of the way you’re happy without me.” We tell them to be happy, while actually the worst thing that could happen to us is seeing that person is being happy without us, because that is when the worst feeling comes; to know that they are happy without us.

"Take Me to the Truth" album cover | source: en.wikipedia.org

Love is selfish. Love is indeed the most egocentric thing that ever existed in this universe. Basically, everyone builds their love on their own ego. I guess that is why there is a thing called jealousy is existed. We cannot love something without demanding it. We cannot love someone without needing them. It doesn’t mean that we do not love them sincerely. It is just that we are all humans. It is natural for us to want to be close to the person we love; to touch, hold, and kiss them, as well as being touched, held, and kissed back by them. It is natural for us to need to stand beside the person we love, as well as to be loved back by them. It is natural for us to long and crave for love from the person we love. And it is very natural for us to be able to make them happy, as well as to be happy together with them. As the person who loves them deeply and sincerely, it is natural if we want them to be happy with us instead of without us. Nobody wants to be alone, while everybody wants to be with the one they love. For not being able to do all of that, we are jealous. For being jealous, we are sad. And out of many things that could make us sad, jealousy is the most horrible one.

I wished you the best of all this world could give. And I told you when you left me, there’s nothing to forgive. But I always thought you’d come back; tell me, all you found was heartbreak and misery. It’s hard for me to say, I’m jealous of the way you’re happy without me.” –Labrinth, Jealous




I’m jealous of the rain that falls upon your skin
It’s closer than my hands have been, I’m jealous of the rain
I’m jealous of the wind that ripples through your clothes
It’s closer than your shadow, oh, I’m jealous of the wind, ‘cause

I wished you the best of all this world could give
And I told you when you left me, there’s nothing to forgive
But I always thought you’d come back, tell me
All you found was heartbreak and misery
It’s hard for me to say, I’m jealous of the way you’re happy without me

I’m jealous of the nights that I don’t spend with you
I’m wondering who you lay next to, oh, I'm jealous of the nights
I’m jealous of the love; love that was in here
Gone for someone else to share, oh, I’m jealous of the love, ‘cause

I wished you the best of all this world could give
And I told you when you left me, there’s nothing to forgive
But I always thought you’d come back, tell me
All you found was heartbreak and misery
It’s hard for me to say, I’m jealous of the way you’re happy without me

As I sink in the sand, watch you slip through my hands
Oh, as I die here another day ‘cause all I do is cry behind this smile

I wished you the best of all this world could give
And I told you when you left me, there’s nothing to forgive
But I always thought you’d come back, tell me
All you found was heartbreak and misery
It’s hard for me to say, I’m jealous of the way you’re happy without me
It’s hard for me to say, I’m jealous of the way you’re happy without me

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  1. stubble upon your blog while trying to find love about it's loneliness. I like your blog... Thanks for the amazing posts

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    1. Hi Marcia,

      thank you so much for stopping by and leaving a comment. I really appreciate your appreciation.

      Nice to know you.

      Warmest regards,
      M.F

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