The Second Time

Thursday, September 15, 2016



Back on late 2011, I never imagined that my life would come to this point. Five years ago, someone made his choice to turn away from me. Five years ago, someone made his decision to leave me behind. Five years ago, I made my choice to let him go. Five years ago, I made my decision to move forward. Turned out we never really knew what tomorrow will bring. Eventually, no matter how long two people were parted, when the universe has its word, then they will be brought together again. And who knows that the second time would be more beautiful than the first? We were falling in love back then, and apparently it’s always there, even after all of these years. The road was rough and windy, but we got here, eventually. Back then, I wrote It was once said, that if you love someone, you got to let them go if they want to. If they come back, then they’re yours forever. If they’re not, then you’re never meant to be together.” Who knows that he was going to be back into my life? Looking back now, I know it was always him. This month, September this year marks a year after our so-called ‘reunion’. This way, I would like to spill out my feelings in this piece of writings. Looking back now, I know it was always you, Vid. And this one is for you.

If your scent only is able to move my world, then your love must be able to change my way of life. If your smile only is able to steal my heartbeat, then your embrace is thing that can sweep all of my heart.” –Raisa, The Second Time (Kali Kedua)

After quite a while, my post is discussing an Indonesian song again. This time I would like to share a song titled “The Second Time (Kali Kedua)”, performed by Indonesian female singer, Raisa. It was written by famous Indonesian author, Dewi ‘Dee’ Lestari. “The Second Time (Kali Kedua)” was released on April 5th 2016, served as the third single taken from Raisa’s third studio album, “Handmade”. The studio album itself had been released back on April 20th 2016. An official music video for “The Second Time (Kali Kedua)”, starred Indonesian actor Nicholas Saputra, was published on her official Youtube account on June 5th 2016, while the lyric video was published before on April 5th 2016. The funny thing is, I despise this song at the beginning. Perhaps it’s because the heavy airtime it has on the radio, therefore I got bored listening to this. However, after examining its lyrics, I slowly find myself falling for this song. Not only because the lyrics depict my love story so well, but also because I cannot not love Raisa and her works. After all, she’s a 90-liner just like me.


"Kali Kedua" music video promotion | source: www.jalurindie.com

It’s easy to start over with the ones you hold so dear. And for me, that person is him. “If your scent only is able to move my world, then your love must be able to change my way of life. If your smile only is able to steal my heartbeat, then your embrace is thing that can sweep all of my heart.” For me personally, it’s always easy to start over with someone I feel familiar with. And when it comes to him, I always know somehow that he’s just a male version of me. At times, I can read him like an open book. Most of the times, I know him like the back of my hand. That’s because we have many similarities, particularly in the way of how our brain works. All the time, our mind-syncing is amazing. It turns out that being separated for about three years doesn’t give a significant divergence, especially in the terms of feeling. Around this date on September last year, we talked about feelings, and we agreed. He said, “I was falling for you back then. And it’s still there.” We meet again, after all of those years, just to realize that we still have feelings for each other.
He came back. And don’t blame me if I won’t let go of him again this time. “Just once is enough; I had felt how excruciating it was to lose you. You’re irreplaceable; you’re the one I always wait for. I will never let go again.” Losing him was like being cursed. Nothing could describe how torturing and tormenting it was. Just once is enough for giving him up to some other girl who was seemingly in need of him back then. Just once is enough for setting him free to pursue the love that he seemingly wanted back then. He said, “Where have I been all this time?” I told him to have no regrets. He won’t realize how precious what we have now unless we were being apart back then. Timing is a bitch, I know it all too well out of all people. However, I always believe that everything happens for a reason, and of course, everything happens at its time. And this is the time. I won’t back down so easily like I did back then. I won’t let go so recklessly like I did back then. Not after I let him know how great and amazing our imperfectly perfect togetherness is.
The road was rough and windy. And it will always be like that. Every time spends with him is like a roller-coaster of emotions. But that’s the essence of a relationship. Through our real conversations, though it takes so much emotional cost, we find our way to negotiate every cause. We’re bending instead of broken. We’re strengthen instead of weaken. Despite our odds, we speak the same language and read the same pages. “Drop the heart, carelessly, we’re together again for the second time. Hold my hand, fall in love together, for the second time with the same person, equally beautiful.” It wasn’t easy for me to convince him to stay. It wasn’t easy for me to show him the shape of my heart, by more than just words. It wasn’t easy to face our insecurities and deal with them. However, this past year has tested our sincerity toward each other. Turns out that you’re the best of me and you’re the one who could bring out the best in me. Time has shown that we belong together. So let’s holding hand, for the future is ours to grasp.


"Handmade" album cover | source: id.wikipedia.org

Nothing comes easy for me and him. However, that doesn’t make us broken. Instead of it, we’re getting stronger. Everything about us is never simple. We know it all too well that we’re both sensitive and over-thinking over anything. However, we also understand, by that way we could reach this point in our relationship. It’s okay, good, and healthy. Conflict enhances intimacy; only and only if we communicate. Well, I and him, we communicate by our own way.  And fortunately, we speak the same language, read the same pages, walk the same path, and think with the same frequency. The differences are tolerable because we communicate; we take it as our learning process to understand each other. And in between those complications we have and (mostly) we create ourselves, we often found simplicity from being together; and that’s beautiful. Moreover, what’s the fun in being ordinary anyway?  Take my hand, and let’s remember all good and great things about us, those happy and sweet moments we’ve had and shared, and those amazing feelings we’ve experienced together; let’s focus on the positive things. “We’re a good team, right?

Just once is enough; I had felt how excruciating it was to lose you. You’re irreplaceable; you’re the one I always wait for. I will never let go again.” –Raisa, The Second Time (Kali Kedua)




Jika wangimu saja bisa memindahkan duniaku, maka cintamu pasti bisa mengubah jalan hidupku
(If your scent only is able to move my world, then your love must be able to change my way of life)
Cukup sekali saja aku pernah merasa betapa menyiksa kehilanganmu
(Just once is enough, I had felt how excruciating it was to lose you)
Kau tak terganti, kau yang selalu kunanti, takkan kulepas lagi
(You’re irreplaceable, you’re the one I always wait for, I will never let go again)

Pegang tanganku, bersama jatuh cinta, kali kedua pada yang sama
(Hold my hand, fall in love together, for the second time with the same person)

Jika senyummu saja bisa mencuri detak jantungku, maka pelukanmu yang bisa menyapu seluruh hatiku
(If your smile only is able to steal my heartbeat, then your embrace is thing that can sweep all of my heart)
Cukup sekali saja aku pernah merasa betapa menyiksa kehilanganmu
(Just once is enough, I had felt how excruciating it was to lose you)
Kau tak terganti, kau yang selalu kunanti, takkan kulepas lagi
(You’re irreplaceable, you’re the one I always wait for, I will never let go again)

Pegang tanganku, bersama jatuh cinta, kali kedua pada yang sama
(Hold my hand, fall in love together, for the second time with the same person)

Jatuhkan hati, tanpa peduli, kedua kali kita bersama lagi
(Drop the heart, carelessly, we’re together again for the second time)

Pegang tanganku bersama jatuh cinta, kali kedua pada yang sama, sama indahnya
(Hold my hand, fall in love together, for the second time with the same person, equally beautiful)
Pegang tanganku bersama jatuh cinta, kali kedua pada yang sama, sama indahnya
(Hold my hand, fall in love together, for the second time with the same person, equally beautiful)

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