One Sided Love

Sunday, September 07, 2014

It’s hard for me to look at you even if you’re close, I’m hidden behind the wall called farewell. Inside my resignation during all of these tough times, your trace is still left behind.” –Kim Gun Mo, One Sided Love [translated lyrics]

2nd album cover by Kim Gun Mo - source: www.maniadb.com


Penyanyi legendaris asal Korea Selatan, Kim Gun Mo, memang lebih terkenal dengan lagu-lagu hits-nya yang upbeat dan bernada ceria (meskipun liriknya tak selalu se‘ceria’ melodinya). Namun disamping itu, ia juga memiliki beberapa lagu hits melankolis. Salah satunya yang paling terkenal –dan juga paling saya sukai– adalah sebuah lagu bertajuk “One Sided Love”. Lagu ballad R n’ B ini dikenal juga dengan judul “I Love You Without You” dan “Love’s Alone”. Pada program acara musik “Immortal Songs 2: Singing the Legend”, lagu ini ditampilkan pada episode 42, yang merupakan bagian kedua dari edisi spesial di mana Kim Gun Mo hadir sebagai legenda. Episode ini ditayangkan pada tanggal 17 Maret 2012 oleh stasiun televisi KBS, serta mengudara di channel KBS World pada tanggal 7 April 2012. Dalam episode tersebut, “One Sided Love” dibawakan oleh Lee Se Jin, solois wanita yang terkenal dengan nama panggung Lyn.
I fell in love with this song since the first time I heard it. First, it’s because of its title, “One Sided Love”. Yes, I’m so in the mood of one-sided love these days. Second, it’s the melody; the beautiful melody that gives out the deep sad feeling of this song. Third, it’s when I understand the meaning behind its lyrics. Sad, as I had predicted, but what surprised me was how deep and poetic the lyrics were, so much that made me pondered for some times to really understand it well. After pondering for a while, I came to a conclusion that “One Sided Love” is a song about someone who keeps an unrequited love for the one whom they know will never come to them. Feels so close yet so far; feels so far yet so close; it’s the basic of a one-sided love. That thing is already hard, but it is even harder because that person is already left, and knowing that they can never see us because of that farewell. Even so, even though that person isn’t here anymore, their presence still lingers. “It’s hard for me to look at you even if you’re close, I’m hidden behind the wall called farewell. Inside my resignation during all of these tough times, your trace is still left behind.”
Indeed, having a one-sided love is a tough thing. As time goes by, it kills all the hopes and expectations, leaving us with nothing but a pitiful feeling. As a new day comes and passes by, it crushes the love, leaving us with nothing but a hurting heart. “My poor wish of waiting for you comes down to pieces as time passes by. The love that I’ve prepared for you will only be erased by today, different from yesterday.” And unknowingly, our tears are falling, as we wonder where this one-sided love bring us to; a lesson of the true meaning of love or just a lesson of an unrequited love. No matter what, it gives us lessons. “It’s the first time I cry for you. Inside those tears, I wonder if you’re still teaching me the love or just loving you by myself alone. I wonder if I could forget you in resentment as much as I love you, because to say farewell to this love, it’s even harder for me.” Because we can’t love farewell, and there’s no love in every goodbye. People don’t say goodbye to the one they love, neither to the love itself. But when the hope is gone, there’s no other way out than to send away the love. In the end, no one and nothing could stop the one-sided feeling but ourselves alone. “Now I send you away in tears by having to cry by myself alone.”

Lyn ketika membawakan lagu "One Sided Love" pada program "Immortal Songs 2" episode 42


Dirilis pertama kali pada tahun 1993, “One Sided Love” adalah title song dari album kedua Kim Gun Mo, meskipun kemudian lead single “Excuse” lebih terkenal sebagai lagu hits yang paling menonjol dari album yang terjual jutaan salinan tersebut. He was judged as having a powerful voice through this song. For her performance in “Immortal Songs 2”, Lyn picked a song that suited her personal situation well on those days. And her choice was absolutely right! If it wasn’t because of her, maybe I wouldn’t be in love with this song at that time. Lyn sang it with all her heart, even her voice shook from the painful memories, and her tears were bursting out near the end of the song. Indeed, “One Sided Love” is a song for everyone who has ever been being left with the scars of love, and it really hits me home. No need to say more, I love this song.

It’s the first time I cry for you. Inside those tears, I wonder if you’re still teaching me the love or just loving you by myself alone. I wonder if I could forget you in resentment as much as I love you, because to say farewell to this love, it’s even harder for me.” –Kim Gun Mo, One Sided Love [translated lyrics]






“Gakkai isseodo neol bolsuga obseo ibyeolre keun byeoge naega garyeojyeo isseo
(It’s hard for me to look at you even if you’re close, I’m hidden behind the wall called farewell)
Himgyopge chamawatdeon naye chenyomseogen ajikdo neoye heunjogi namgyeojyeo isseo
(Inside my resignation during all of these tough times, your trace is still left behind)

Gidarigetdadeon ne seotun baraemdo sigane heureumsogeseo munojyeo naerigo
(My poor wish of waiting for you comes down to pieces as time passes by)
Neolwihae junbihan naye sarangeun eojewa dareun oneullo jiwojyeo gagetji
(The love that I’ve prepared for you will only be erased by today, different from yesterday)

Choeum nolwihae heullineun
(It’s the first time I cry for you)
Naye nunmulsogeseo neon jigeumdo sarangeul gareuchyeojuna honjamane sarangeul
(Inside those tears, I wonder if you’re still teaching me the love or just loving you by myself alone)
Naega saranghetdongeot mankeum noreul miwohamyeon ijeulkka
(I wonder if I could forget you in resentment as much as I love you)
Ibyeolkkajido saranghalsuneun eobsotgie
(Because to say farewell to this love, it’s even harder for me)

Honjaseo heullyoyahaneun nunmulsogeseo noreul bonego
(Now I send you away in tears by having to cry by myself alone)”

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